Thomas Brodie Sangster imagines

Newt- Panic attack

⚠️WARNING⚠️- self harm, panic attack and injury detail
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Y/n's POV

I was just about to drift off to sleep since it was quite late when I hear a pounding on my door. I shot up in be a bit startled by the noise and quickly ran over to the door. I opened it to a what seemed to be a quite alarmed Alby.

I tried to speak but he started straight away. "Y/n, follow me now" he commanded walking away. I followed him outside of my hut and a few huts down he stopped in front of Newts. I was confused to why we were stood outside my boyfriends hut for a second until I hear faint crying nosies and promptly got worried.

"Alby what's wrong" I asked slightly scared for Newt.

"Well you see Newt is having a panic attack and I would of helpers but you are the only one he feels safe around and you can sooth him. Well and he is a mess you should see the state of his room. He really needs you." He flapped opening the door and pushing me in slamming it behind him.

I turned around to see Newt curled up in a ball on the floor sobbing and shaking violently. I looked around to see broken glass from his mirror scattered all over his floor. It really was a mess.

I quickly ran over to him bringing him into a tight hug, grabbing his hands and rubbing the cuts from the glass softly seeing blood trace all over my fingers.
It wasn't too much blood so I wasn't too worried until I saw it.

"Shucking hell Newt!" I screamed pulling his head out of his hands ,which were now full of blood, and tilting it back.

There was a massive slash going down the side of his face. Starting at his hair line and down to the corner of him mouth. I quickly pulled him up, struggling a bit and pulling his arm over my shoulder. I brought him over to the bed and sat him down bringing him the bin just in case he was sick. He was still shaking so I brought him into a hug and squeezed him tightly. Rocking him a bit I kissed his cheek and he started to calm down a bit.

I pulled away holding him still and lifted his head up. I kissed him on the lips for a few seconds and pulled away smiling.

"Newtie what's wrong?" I ask sweetly kissing his cheek again.

"I-I am just so stressed since I have so much to handle since Ably is lacking a bit and only shouting and pushing people around" he stuttered

"Yeah your right about that" I giggled making him laugh a bit too, thinking of Ably pushing me in the room and storming off.

"I just feel like all the pressure is on me and I know, I know that sounds selfish and stuff and I'm sorry that I haven't been giving you much attention any more I-"

"Newt stop." I commanded getting up to get the first aid kit. "Everyone knows you are doing everything to keep everyone safe and that you are trying your hardest. You don't need to worry about me at all, I love that you are helping everyone even though it isn't really your job. It proves what a strong, kind young man you are." I state walking back over and getting the wipes out.

"Now, this may sting"

Time skip

"How did you do this?" I ask pointing at the dripping red cut on his face and a forming bruise surrounding it.

"Well when I-I smashed the mirror I was really angry so I kinda picked up a piece of glass and um- yeah" he said looking down at his hands.

"Newt!" I yell. "I can't believe you would hurt yourself like that." I say slightly shocked.

"Well it's not like you haven't done it before" I mumbled under his breath rolling his eyes.

I just stood there, staring at him in shock. He promised me he wouldn't bring that up again...

Flashback

"Hey Y/n" Newt greeted me walking in my hut without knocking making me quickly Chuck my blade across the room and hid my arm behind my back.

"Uhhh- hey Newt" I said laughing a little looking down at the floor, not daring to make eye contact.

"Umm Y/n are you ok?" He asks walking over to me making me back up against the wall pressing my body against it.

"Oh me? Haha yeah I'm fine. Ummm I'm just gonna go to the Uhh bathroom" I say giggling again and walking over to the bathroom still facing him. He looking at me confused and then I slammed the door running over to the tap and washing my wrist quickly. And getting the medical box from the cabinet.

Time skip (still in flashback)

I walked out of the bathroom to see Newt looking at the wall where I was just pressed against. He looked at me when I walked out and I saw he had tears in his eyes.

"When we're you gonna tell me?" He asked sniffling slightly.

"What do you-?"

"Y/N, don't act dumb!" He shouted making me jump. He lifted his hand and pointed at the wall making me follow his fingers over to the wall.

Oh shuck, I thought looking at the massive red smear on the wall. When I pressed up against the wall it must of leaked onto it.

Newt caught me off guard and pulled my wrists out from behind my back, revealing hundreds of faded and new cuts across my skin. Newt gulped and dropped my hands.

Tears leaked out of his eyes as he stood there. His hand came up to his mouth and he sobbed into it. "I can't believe you would hurt yourself like that." He cried as he got me some wipes.

"Newt, I-I've already done tha-"

"I don't care"

Back to present day

I was still stood there, I looked up to Newt and sighed.

"I can't believe you brought that up again after how much it took out of me to stop."

"Y/n I-I didn't mean it I-"

"I think I should leave" I say walking over to the door.

"No ple-"

"I hope I helped you Newt and please don't hurt yourself like that again." I say slamming the door and walking back to my hut in tears.

I know I probably shouldn't have done that and that it was quite selfish of me to walk out on him when he  was going through a hard time but it took me a while to get over that and the fact that he would bring it up again, well it breaks my heart.
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Hello everyone I am BACK!!!!

I know this one is quite rubbishy but I am really tired as I have just got back from my holiday but I still hope you enjoyed it and that you are all ok.

I love you all, byeee xxxx