Metanoia

Whelve

(n.) to bury something deep; to hide.

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"What's your name sweetie?". "Ariana Purnama," I replied happily. Everyone always thinks I'm a sweet child. Always hear what my parents said. Never make any trouble. Just an ordinary child. "When you get your quirk, Ariana?". "I don't know. But mom said I'm a late bloom," I said. They don't care if I have a quirk or not. My personality makes them stay with me without thinking about my quirk.

But when I got my quirk, everyone turns their back on me. "I'm sorry, my mommy said I can't play with you anymore. Your quirk is dangerous for me". Start from there, everyone avoids me like a disease. From that, I believed that my quirk is a curse. "Why life is never on my side?" I questioned.

"How humans can behave like that when you're just different from the other? Just like I said, humans are always egoists".

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I woke up from my nightmare. Of course, my whole body is drenched by my cold sweat. "I hate it," I whispered to myself. I'm wasting my sleepless night watching my television.

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I walked to the gym and see Shinso waiting for me. "You look like shit," Shinso mocked. "Heh, thanks," I laughed to hear that. Shinso was shocked to hear my reply since I always replied to him with another sarcasm. We're waiting for Aizawa-sensei to come while I'm just dozing off. "Are you okay?" he asked. I'm just nodded replied to his question. Of course not, my eye bags are getting worse. My nightmares are getting worse where I can feel them like reality.

"Kid, did you get any sleep?" ask Aizawa-sensei looked at me. I just stare at him. He knows my answer from his expression. "Go get some rest. I'll teach Shinso from now," he demanded. I sit under one of the trees and try to get some sleep. I can't say I'm sleeping. I'm still can hear Shinso get thrown by Aizawa-sensei. After they're done sparing, I go back to class 1-A and waiting for my next teacher.

"I'M HERE to teach the new student," shouted All might. "What's your name, young one?" he asked me. "Yamashita Kumiko," I replied. All might teach me the lessons with her beaming voice. The more I tried to focus the more I get zoned out. "YOU'RE JUST A MONSTER!". "WHY WOULD YOU TRY TO HELP OTHERS, WITCH?". "ARE YOU GONNA EAT ME AS THE RETURN?!". "GO AWAY! I DON'T WANT TO GET ANY BAD LUCK!".

"Shut up... it's too noisy..." I mumbled. I'm put my head on the desk and closed my ears. I can't break down at school. Some too many people can see me."Kumiko, are you okay?" All Might wondered. "M-may I go to the toilet?" I asked more like begging. All Might look confused but let me anyway. In the bathroom, I tried to calm myself. Even I touch my side neck to calm my own heartbeat. There's no use, you know it.

I grip my hand until my knuckles turn white. Don't let your emotions out of control, Yama. It will make it worse. Just focus on your surrounding. If you let out your emotions, the past will repeat itself. You don't want that to happen again, rite? Then try to lock your emotions. Stay rational to yourself.

After I'm sure I'm okay, I get back to the class and see All Might waiting for me. "Sorry if I'm out for too long," I apologized. "It's okay, Kumiko. I think it's my way to teach you wrong," he said. "No, not at all. I can understand what you teach me. It's just I'm not in good condition today," I denied. All Might let me take the note. "All Might..." I muttered. "Yes, Kumiko?" he asked. "Do you think... someone can become a hero... even though they're making a really big mistake in the past?" I whispered.