All He Ever Lusted (Completed) [BEING REWRITTEN]

Chapter Nineteen - Tell Me Why

{All He Ever Lusted}

Chapter Nineteen - Tell Me Why

➳ STACEY'S POV

And when he exited the library, with nothing except the tingling sounds trailing behind his figure, my thoughts began to clear up little by little. 

I knew that was I’m beginning to trust you, Alistar. And it's scaring me. I'm giving you new ways to hurt me every single day. What's strange is, I don’t actually think you will.

I was undoubtedly in love with him. I'm still trying so hard to fight this feeling but I just can’t anymore, I’m falling harder and harder each passing day. 

He's supposed to be a friend — if that's even the correct way to explain our relationship — and nothing else. But that's a lie I keep repeating to myself. I get so giddy when I meet his eyes, but I have to keep reminding myself it isn't right. 

A simple glance turns into a stare, but I pretend that I don't care. It's just not right, that’s why I have to hide it so no one can see. But I can't pretend any longer, because my biggest wish right now is destroying me catastrophically.

I lifted the lid of the box and I gasped in astonishment once I saw what was inside. It was a delicate, exquisite bracelet that I had never seen before. A little charm hung in the centre of it, and I flipped it over. Printed on it was a simple, yet the most powerful phrase: je t'aime.

Even with my lack of vocabulary when it came to French, that single phrase made my heart skitter, as I felt the tears really leaving my eyes this time. 

How was I supposed to treat this as one 'last favour' when he did such things? I really, really didn’t want to give up on Alistar. 

I took the bracelet out of the box, and placed it on the palm of my hands, feeling the refreshing chill from it. I crammed my hands shut and placed both of them on my forehead, as I felt all my feelings flowing through me. 

Yes, Alistar made me confused as hell. He annoyed me with his taunts. He hurts me by his odd behaviour but now, I realise that I didn't want to — that I can't — let go of something so amazing. In my heart, he was still a beast, that can't be changed.

But now, I've looked deeper within Alistar, and it scared me, it still petrified me because I know what he truly is now. 

He wasn't just human, nor is he just a monster. 

He's a guardian angel.

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| Whitney's POV |

Where was he? I looked around the space around me. It was getting dark, it was getting cold and I was getting thirsty. 

Luckily, I see him emerging out of the school, concerned expression on his face, as his eyebrows furrowed. 

"Hey," I say. 

He doesn't reply to me, just continues walking until he finds his usual grand oak tree and settles down there. He sits down, then leans his head against the bark and closes his eyes.

I walk over to where he's sitting, and settle down next to him. 

“Is everything okay?" I say in a gentle tone. 

I was deplorable. This was overwhelming to just absorb in. I should hate Alistar at this moment, after all he had caused, but I couldn't bring myself to. I just couldn't. I couldn't trust myself around him, I've realised that by now. 

I should have walked away when I still had the chance. It was just when he had asked me out, my heart was gratified. It didn't matter back then that it was because of Stacey. I had still believed that a little part of him would admire, and eventually learn to cherish me.