Are We Really Bestfriends 4 Life

SEVENTEEN

Danica

I smiled once I saw Kacey walking over to the table that I was sitting at. We hugged each other and she sat on the opposite side of the table and picked up the menu.

"Wassup stranger bitch?" Kacey jokes making both of us laugh.

"Girrrllllll." I start off dramamtically and flip my hair. "So much shit has been going on."

"Well fill me in girl; you know Khi ass always asking about you since he know me and you are actually like homegirls now." She chuckles lowly as she continues to look over the menu.

We were currently at this new seafood place that just recently opened in Hollywood. Zaire brung me here a couple times since they've opened but I wanted to let Kacey try it out since I've found out that she likes seafood a lot.

"Hows motherhood?" Kacey continues.

I sighed heavily. "It has its pros and its cons." I started. "If it wasnt for Zaire's mom, girl I would have been blown my head off forreal."

Tabetha has been such an awesome help when it came to Lilyanna; she was a true lifesaver. Whenever Lily needed anything she was there, if we needed a babysitter she was there, hell even when it came to doctor's appointments Tabetha was there. Especially when Zaire is out doing his illegal activities and leaving me to be the stay at home mom, Tabetha comes through and spends time with both me and Lily.

I've actually grown to really like Tabetha, she was definitely becoming a mother figure to me amd someone I could confide in.

"So what's up with you and babydaddy? Is he holding up his end of the stick or nah?"

I sighed. "Girl I dont even know; like I dont even know what the hell is going on between us. I knew he wasnt gonna be ready to be a dad and hell I wasnt ready to be a mother but I'm doing it. It's like he's going back to being that nigga I first met; not caring about shit and being selfish."

Zaire has good and bad days but mostly bad ones. I was hoping that us having a child would knock some real sense into his head and be more motivation for him to get his shit together. He's starting to stay out all hours of the night, coming home pissy drunk, and not returning phone calls or messages.

The waiter came over to take our order and went on his way.

"You think he cheating?" Kacey asks me and drinks some of her margarita.

I sigh and just slowly shook my head." I honestly dont know but I really hope not cause that was one of his biggest issues in the past. I dont think he is but with Zaire you never really know because he is sooo good with his words."

I just wanted my family; I want to be with Zaire and really work on us and build together.

Kacey nodded her head. "One thing I will say girl like on some serious shit; dont lose yourself. I look at you like a little sister and I'ma be honest Danica, you're going down the same path that I did when I was with Kaliyah's dad. That's why I'm in the situation that I'm in now with my grandma taking care of her instead of me." She shook her head. "That nigga fucked me up badly and if it wasnt for my mama, Kali would of been God knows where, and I still would of been all the way fucked up."

I nod my head as I take in what she's telling me.

"I know you may want your lil family and stuff but girl sometimes you gotta take a break to see if shits reall worth the fight. I had Kaliyah at fourteen, was dealing with King's ass since before Kali and just officially stopped dealing with that nigga a year ago." She chuckles lowly and shakes her head. "It's toxic as hell Danica, if deep down you feel its not worth it then leave it alone while you can."