I'll Show You (rewritten)

22: Life on top

Wane

"What do you want Rubin?" My voice came out flat and completely uninterested, I had been up since five in the morning sorting out paperwork and I wasn't in the mood for much else. My nights' sleep had become almost nothing and with each passing day came the increasing need to curl up somewhere and have the mental breakdown that was over a year due.

My Beta entered my study, cautiously making his way towards me and taking a seat in one of my leather couches opposite my desk. He gave me a once over before a defeated expression took over and he slapped a hand to his forehead.

He sighed, slumping down and slightly creasing his pressed shirt, "you've completely forgotten haven't you?"

He looked at me with incredulous eyes, what had I forgotten? I thought for a moment putting the papers in my hand down. Taking into account Rubin's formal appearance warily I tried to sift through my foggy mind but came up blank. Something was going on but I just couldn't remember, couldn't have been that important anyway.

"The meeting?" At my vacant expression, he grew angry.

"Please tell me you have your suit ready?"

He threw his hands up in the air as he stood up, "I have no idea how many times I have told you, this meeting is important. There are Alphas from all over the US meeting up to talk about the pack up near Michigan and you're not prepared?! You have ten minutes Wane, don't make a fool out of us." He turned around and marched out the room leaving me wondering what was so important that Alphas were meeting up.

My curiosity got the better of me as I got ready. I didn't have a suit so I shoved some dark jeans with a dressy top on, the lack of sleep not helping with my care levels. I had lost a lot of my motivation to do anything from my wolf who hadn't made an appearance in months.

I ran a hand through my dishevelled hair, trying my hardest to get it to look presentable. With a last attempt and the long strands refusing to listen I gave up. The rest of me had no chance, the lack of sleep had destroyed my skin, causing dark spots and bags to form, I didn't take any care in my appearance, but the biggest difference was my wolf. Detached and depressed he refused to talk to me and moped all the time, mourning what could have been while I tried my best to seem as if I'm all there when it was clear that I wasn't.

The nightmares made sure of that.

With one last pained glance in the mirror, I spray on a unlabelled bottle of cologne and slapped my cheeks a few times, hoping to wake my ass up. It was painful to look in the mirror with how dead I looked, but I soldiered on.

Leisurely, I strolled towards my car and got in, ignoring looks from both Bleu and Rubin behind me. I didn't want to talk, I didn't want to be driving about to a meeting when I was living off of two hours sleep and I certainly didn't want to be reminded of how I had forgotten whatever it was that was happening.

Where's the meeting being held?

Bleu's voice replied immediately through the mind link, Next pack south of us, the River Bend Pack.

Brilliant. The pack was well known for their greed and elderly Alpha - Alpha Jones. The power hungry man wouldn't pass his title down to either of his sons despite them being five years over the age of maturity. I remembered meeting him when my father had invited them over for dinner, the man didn't look like much of a fighter but it was the malicious glint in his eyes that gave his inner self away. He was a plotter, a strategist which had pawns and eyes everywhere. Brain not braun, his power hidden from others to see before it was too late.

This was going to be a very long day.

The drive in my blue Lamborghini went by swiftly, the calming music on the radio calmed me down a little, but I still felt horrible. I kept my eyes trained on the road ahead, numbly staring as the tarmac blended for miles and my mind tuned out of Bleu and Rubin's conversation. Inside my head was like static, a fuzziness taking over the space my wolf would usually occupy. A small sigh left me at the temporary loss of my wolf, as annoying as he could get he was still a part of me and with the disappearance of Kacie, came the pain of rejection that I struggled to get through. Especially without the full support of my wolf.