After hours of me staring at the ceiling trying to figure out my life. I finally gave up and went to sleep. Jj woke me up after my terrible night of sleep. I woke up longing for Rafe though. I wish I could see his messy morning hair and morning voice, but also Loved seeing jj here as we haven't been that close for awhile. This was killing me. It really was. I actually can't take it anymore. Last night with jj was amazing but every moment I have with Rafe is magnificent. My thoughts can't stay with me anymore so I say to jj 'Jj do you like me, like as in like like' he was surprised but answered 'yes molly I do have a crush on you'. I was happy 'Jj I'm only saying this because I don't want to hurt you.. Rafe, Rafe Cameron is my b.bo..boyfriend.' Why did I find that hard to say, omg Molly stop. I then add 'Jj I do like you but I think I love Rafe. Jj please don't hate me.' Jj answered 'Molly I knew you liked Rafe ok but it's not going to stop me from still flirting with you and trying to make you mine'. He laughs, I blush. 'Jj I rafes my boyfriend so your only going to hurt yourself by having feelings for me.' 'Oh molly, do you know me like seriously. You won't hurt me'. Ok I guess that was believable. That whole conversation was so awkward. I didn't tell Jj but I really do have feelings for him. The only reason I didn't want him to have feelings for me was so I could get over him. But I love Rafe. Oh shit. Oh shit I love Rafe .LOVE. I never even told him that I love him. Jeez Molly it's getting worse for me. I might wait though you know and wait for something special or romantic to happen and then I will tell him. Hopefully. I'd I don't Pusey out. Because I never told anyone I loved them before. Growing up without parents really can have an impact on trust issues and who you 'love'. So ye this is special for me. Ha
