He starts talking 'I have been having sharp pains in my chest and they are awfully sore. I went to the doctors last year about it and they said it was panic attacks, and it was. Smoking and drinking and drugs don't help the pain and I did a lot of those things last night. I woke up this morning and couldn't really breathe and I only could drive as far as my house so I had to call an ambulance. They took tests and blood and diagnosed stage 4 asthma. It's the worst kind.' He looks down at his shoes. I assure him by saying 'I'm so sorry Rafe, I didn't know you were in pain all this time, but it's going to get better. Tell me more about it'. He continues 'stage 4 asthma is severe asthma and I need an inhaler on me at all times, the doctor said I was lucky they diagnosed it in time as I could've died from it. The sharp pains in my chest were the asthma. Can we go home now.' Rafe looks so tired, he hold onto my shoulder and limps out. In the car I say to him, 'why didn't you tell me.' He responded 'I didn't want you to worry.' I say to him to get his mind off it 'I'm moving out at the end of the week.' I say it smiling but Rafe takes a puff of his inhaler.
•Rafes part•
She's moving out at the end of the week. This made me panic. I took a puff of my inhaler and the pain was gone in my chest. Wow this thing really works. 'What's wrong?'she says. 'Nothing just testing it out,' I lie. I was worried about her and if her family was going to be nice or would they like me or would John b take care of her if they didn't or if she leaves me. I couldn't think about this right now or I would have another panic attack. She says 'Where are we going.' I say 'Go back to the pogues.' In all my years of hating the pogues, I liked being around them, it want lonely with them around. She pulled up at her house and helped me out. She helps me walk to the door and i immediately need to take my inhaler. I hoped I wouldn't be like this all the time, it was exhausting. They all said hello to us when we walked in and I started to get weaker and started leaning on molly more. I saw she was struggling and tried to walk be myself but I couldn't, I felt bad. 'Bed', I say to her. I couldn't get out a full sentence, the energy was drained from me. Jj got up and helped molly help me. They take me to Molly's room and I collapsed on the bed. I was never this tired. I think the doctors took too much blood. I heard jj asking molly what was wrong with me. She said 'he just got diagnosed with severe asthma and I think they took to much blood, he's so weak right now.' She couldn't of said it any better, that's my girl. I then fall asleep and can't remember anything after that.
•Molly's part•
I have never seen Rafe this vulnerable. He wasn't able to do anything, he was totally wrecked. I felt so bad for him, he made sure I had such a good night last night and now this is what he gets in return. He goes to sleep, he looks so cute. John b comes into my room and sits down on the chair. 'Two more days Moll, and we'll have a new life.' I respond 'I can't believe it, it all just happened so fast but I'm happy about it.' I get up and throw a blanket over Rafe. John b leaves the room and gives me a wink as he leaves. I got in the bed beside Rafe and fell asleep, we then woke up a few hours later I was freezing. Rafe took his hoodie off and gave it to me. It smelt like him and was so warm. He puts his arms around me and I rest my head on his lap. It was nighttime when we woke so he got up and put out his hand for me to hold. I put my hand on his and he leads me outside and grabs a blanket on his way out. He limps his way out. He brings me to the outdoor couch and lights a bonfire and we lay down together. We watched sunrise together. He put his head on mine, and says 'I'd love to fuck you right now. But I physically cannot.' I reply 'don't worry you'll have several chances in the future.' He looks confused and asks 'Only several? More like a several hundred.' I laugh at him, he is always thinking what I am. He gets on top of me and says towering over me 'Are you laughing at me' I answer 'what if I am'. He says 'I'll have to fuck some sense into you.'
•Rafes part•
She doesn't say anything. I'm still on top of her with her legs around my waist, my chains dangling from my chest. She grabs my neck and pulls me in closer to her. I pull her up onto my lap. I kiss her neck and put my hands up her top. She puts her hands up and I pull her top off. She's wearing a low cut lace bra. She takes off my top and pushes me back onto the couch. She lies down on me and kisses my body. I stare at her and I pull her by the hair and grab her waist and turn her around so that I'm on top. I copy her and kiss her whole body, her moaning as I get in between her legs. 'Rafe' she says gasping for air. I keep going. She put her hands through my hair and it was so hot. I finish on her and she's shaking. 'I can't stop' she says. I kiss her and hold her legs and bring her into me. I have the pain in my chest again and I look for my inhaler and take a puff. I felt so good but so bad. I still have her legs in my grip. She starts to stop shaking. She says 'wow'. I say 'I'm good arent I.' She pushes me and says 'Shut up you, I'm talking about the sunrise.' The sun came up and it was beautiful, beautiful just like her. 'Molly.' I say 'I need you to run inside and get me my inhaler please I don't think I can get it quick enough.' I lost the inhaler in the grass and couldn't find it and it would have been faster to get the one inside. She says 'but I'm naked.' I give her my top and it fitted like a dress so she didn't need a bottoms. I was getting really out of breathe. She ran in and grabbed it and gave it to me, I couldn't say thank you because of my shortness of breath. I took five puffs and then sat on the ground and I put my hands over my head. I felt like I just after sprinted a marathon. 'Thank you' I finally get to say. We make our way inside and I rang my doctor and asked him why I was so bad, he said I would be like that for another few days as my body is only getting used to the inhaler. Molly took a shower and came back out in a bikini, catching everyone's attention and catching my breathe as I take another puff of the inhaler. Jj points out her bruises 'woah you have so many bruises, what the heck, are you ok?'. Molly looks at me and she looked as if she was insecure about them and I mouth her something. Kie said 'did he just say I love you.' Molly answered 'no he said, I own you.'....I smile.
