It all started with a follow // mitchel cave

9

autumns p.o.v
saturday 6:00 pm
the boys house
(trigger warning: self harm)

Mitchel and I took our stuff to his room, I haven't talked to anyone since yesterday. I put my suitcase into his closet as he began unpacking. I went into the bathroom, I closed and locked the door. tears fell down my face as I slid down the door. I curled up and cried until I got up and looked in the cabinet that the spare stuff was kept in. there was a razor and I grabbed it. I rolled up the sleeve to my hoodie and slid the blade across my forearm. it was painful but it felt good. I made another line, but this time I put the blade deeper into my arm. I cut myself a few more times then washed off the razor and put it somewhere safe. I rolled my sleeve back down and wiped the tears from my face. I unlocked the bathroom door and walked out. Mitchel was laying on his bed staring at the ceiling. I walked over to the bed and laid down next to him.

"are you okay..? you haven't said one word since right before we were on the plane yesterday.." Mitchel said with sadness in his voice. 

"I'm fine. sorry I didn't talk to you I got carried away and tired." I said acting like I didn't hurt myself, even though my arm was throbbing with pain. the pain was a good feeling right now though. 

"I know you're lying. you are always so caring and talkative.." Mitchel said and I could hear the pain in his voice.

"M-" I was about to respond but my phone started buzzing. I checked and it was the vet calling. I got up from the bed.

"I'll be right back" I said as I walked out of the room and stood in the hallway leaning on the railing.

the call:
me
hello?

vet
hello, is this Autumn Xanthe?

me
yes it is.

vet
I have some news about the cat you brought in. all good news.

me
okay, what is it?

vet
the cat you brought in is actually not a male. she is a female and while we were looking through the crate, we found a small tuxedo kitten. luckily the kitten is in good health. the mother is healing nicely, and if you want since she is not chipped we can chip her under your name so you can adopt her.

me
that is great. is there a way I can come and see them?

vet
of course. come in tomorrow morning, just tell Allison who is the woman at the front desk, your name and she will bring you back to where the cats are being held. have a good night.

me
okay, thanks. bye

vet
goodbye.

I went back into Mitchel's room and he was sitting up on his bed instead of laying down like before. I walked up to him and he looked up at me.

"the vet called. the cat is healing and is actually a female. they were looking through the cage and they found a kitten. the vet said I can go and see them tomorrow"

"can I come?" Mitchel asked with a slight smile.

"sure, what time do you want to go?"

"umm..12?"he said with a little excitement in his eyes

"okay" I said as I turned and stared at myself in the large mirror that covered the closet doors.

 I looked at everything everyone pointed out wondering if what they said is true. I am constantly convinced it is. Mitchel stood up and hugged me, I winced at the pain of him squishing my arms against my body. Mitchel let go and backed up. I turned to look at him and I could see tears forming in his eyes. a tear rolled down my cheek and Mitchel stepped closer to me.