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93 - The band

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"So she said no?" Zayn asked me while I looked at the rings on my hands nodding. I'd just asked Lauren Jauregui if she'd date me but she turned me down and now I was here hiding in Zayn and I shared a tour bus.

"Yea and now I feel so hurt, but I knew it'd happen.." I said Quietly. Zayn sighed and pulled me up dragging me to the back room.

"Put your feelings in a fucking song instead of sulking," Zayn said pushing me onto the couch then handing me my guitar. I chuckled nodding to his words. He sat across from me while on his phone. Zayn and I were on tour with Halsey and Lauren Jauregui. We both fucked around and I could've sworn it was going towards a relationship but I was wrong, so wrong.

"Why
Why
Switching into airplane mode again"

I started remembering the first time we'd kissed and how my heart raced just being with her and getting the privilege to worship her body.

We're not alright but I'll pretend
Press my cheek against the glass
Just be good 'til I get back
The ground disappears
I hold back the tears
I check my phone to see your face
Staring back as if to say
Don't worry, you won't be lonely
Why won't you love me?
Why won't you love me?
You imagine when you close your eyes
You're with me on the other side
So why won't you love me?
Few drinks deep at a table for one
The place we like to go and you take yourself home again
Three missed calls at 2 a.m.
You say you never heard
You're late to get to work and then
The time disappears
You hold back the tears
Your best girlfriend just got engaged
You say you can't wait and need to make a change
You told me it's so hard to be lonely
Why won't you love me?
Why won't you love me?
We're together, all alone tonight
So helpless from the other side
So why won't you love me?
Can you tell me why, my love? Can you tell me why?
I hold on to you and you hold on to me
Can you tell me why, my love? Can you tell me why?
I hold on to you and you hold on
Why won't you love me?
Why won't you love me?
Why won't you love me?
You imagine when you close your eyes
You're with me on the other side
So why won't you love me?

I finished feeling tears finally leave my eyes. I wiped them away and looked up at Zayn who nodded to the song.

" We should perform that once we get to Japan"

I looked at him with wide eyes as he chuckled at me while shaking his head.

"Wait really?" I said shocked.

"I mean y/n your more into writing songs than I am. We should start working on our new album to get your mind off of Lauren and make the fans happy." He explained making me nod to his words

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It'd been some time since I'd talked to Lauren. I'd ended up taking his advice and started on our third album, and most of the songs I'd had were about Lauren which was no surprise. Zayn gave me some of the songs he liked that would fit into the album perfectly. We'd just got to Japan and tonight I was going to finally perform the song I'd wrote for Lauren.

I got ready to perform while Zayn talked to my sister, Gigi about their daughter, my niece Khai.

"Okay baby I'll tell him, and hey kiss my baby girl for me" Zayn spoke then hung up.