love bath|seochangbin

-eleven-

-JiWoo's POV-
|18+|

"Fuck—would you believe me if I told you you're my first?" ChangBin groans as he gently pushes his tip in. I toss my head back and close my eyes tightly.

"Uh—I know—Chan told me." I mumble as I grip onto the sheets in hopes of helping me adjust faster.

"When—no—forget it—I don't care." ChangBin stops when he's roughly half way in. He leans down to cup my face and presses a gentle peck to my lips. He waits patiently for me to adjust, not wanting to make me any more uncomfortable than I already am.

"Keep going, Bin." I nod in approval and he slowly pushes the rest of himself in before bottoming out. I reach up and wrap my arms around his waist.

"You're doing amazing, Baby. You look so pretty like this. You're so perfect." ChangBin begins to shower me with compliments while he waits for me to tell him to move. I'm not mad about the compliments, but they seem kind of weak. I always imagined that the first time I had sex would be filled with someone telling me how much they loved me, but he hasn't said it. He hasn't even hinted at the word.

"What's wrong?" ChangBin tenses the moment he senses something off about me.

"Nothing—you can move." I inform him as I angle my arms so I can dig my nails into his shoulders.

"No—tell me what's wrong or I'm stopping all together." ChangBin insists as he pulls away from me. He goes to pull out all together, but I quickly force him closer to me.

"I promise, Bin. There's nothing wrong. I'm just—I'm worried and kind of scared—okay? I always imagined my first time being with someone I loved more than anything—yet here we are. It's a love hate relationship. I'm just—I'm scared it won't work out and that this'll just hurt me in the end." I admit as I turn away from his gaze. I know he cares about me. He just doesn't know how to show it and express it without feeling weak and afraid.

"Is that—is that what you want? Love? You want me to tell you I love you—don't you?" ChangBin brushes my hair from my face and leans down to press his lips to mine. It's not a soft peck that fades in seconds. It's longer and deeper than that. I can feel his heart in it.

"I love you. I love you so fucking much it scares me. If I didn't love you I wouldn't have put myself in such a bad situation earlier to save you. I would've just left you. I would've let you deal with it on your own. I really do love you—I'm just—I'm afraid, too." ChangBin whispers as he starts to trail kisses from my jaw to my throat then my chest. He kisses every inch of my body he can reach without pulling out.

"Move, Binnie—please move." I insist and ChangBin obeys. He pulls out before gently pushing back in. The first few thrusts are soft and weak, not wanting to push me too far before I can adjust completely.

ChangBin reaches up and takes my hand in his. He pins it above my head and leaves the other to mark his shoulder. As his thrusts start to increase in pace, I close my eyes and let out soft whimpers. The discomfort slowly shifting into pleasure.

"God—I fucking love you. I love everything about you. Your gorgeous face. Your flawless body. Uhh—your attitude is the best part—and it's only for me." ChangBin catches onto my love for praise and feeling needed. He does everything he can to keep talking to be despite how much pleasure he's in.

"Shit—you're so tight. I never imagined it feeling this good before." ChangBin's breath becomes labored as he leans down to attack my neck. I move my free hand to tangle my fingers in his hair. I tilt my head back to give him more access to my throat.

He sucks and nibbles on my skin without a care in the world. I tug on his hair lightly as he hits just the right spot. I moan loudly and he smiles against my skin. He aims every thrust just right to make me see stars.