love bath|seochangbin

-seven-

"Sex God my ass." I groan under my breath as ChangBin snores softly beside me.

He didn't even make it to actual sex before he passed out. I was so ready to finally break out of my norm and be an everyday teenager and he had to fall asleep on me. I will admit it wasn't like we did nothing. I did experience my very first orgasm—so it wasn't all bad.

I sigh as roll onto my side to face him. I like him like this. He's cute and innocent—something I still can't believe goes with his name as well as it does. Seo ChangBin is this badass on the outside, but deep down he just wants to feel like he matters. He wants people to pay attention to him. He wants to feel like he has a place in the world—and the easiest way of doing that is by taking that place.

He took Chan's role as leader because it meant that the other boys would listen to him. It meant that he would be the center of their world. Of course—they all still have their reservations about it. Chan still plays his role behind the scenes. Being a leader isn't about giving out demands and yelling—it's about being there for the others and making sure everything is alright. ChangBin just hasn't gotten that part down yet.

I reach out and ghost my fingers over his cheek. I jump as he reaches up to grab my hand. He gently presses my palm to his cheek and my heart melts. I know it won't last. I know that once he comes to his senses he'll go back to being the same ChangBin I met in the hallway, but at least I'll know the truth. Knowing the truth will make it easier to take his tormenting. It'll help me keep my cool when I want to go off on him.

I hear someone in the living room and I hesitantly slip out of bed. I listen closely as they turn the tv on, clearly not able to sleep. I try to figure out who it is, but they don't give me anything to go off of. I give in and slip out of the room. Honestly, it shouldn't shock me who it is. Most of the others were too far gone to even move earlier.

"Can't sleep?" Chan questions as he pats the couch next to him. I nod and fall down beside him.

"ChangBin the Sex God fell asleep before he could even pretend to be good at sex." I stare at the tv as I casually tell Chan what happened.

"Him? A Sex God? That kid is a big softy. He's never touched another person before—sexually at least. He has jerked himself off a lot though." Chan spills ChangBin's secret without hesitation as an amused chuckle slips passed his lips.

"If you want Sex God go to HyunJin or MinHo." Chan informs me as if this were a normal everyday conversation for him.

"Or Chan." HyunJin adds as he slips out of the bedroom. His hair is damp and his face exhausted.

"This Sex God will force you to shut your mouth." Chan shoots him a glare before motioning for him to sit on the other side of him.

"None of us have been with a girl before. It's not that we don't want to—it's just—" Chan struggles to come up with the rights words for his explanation.

"Why deal with girls when we have each other? I mean—we can't get pregnant. None of us are ugly. We just do what needs to be done. Besides—we don't really like letting outsiders in. The last time we did, SeungMin ended up in America for six months." HyunJin takes over Chan's explanation without hesitation.

"The only reason we let you in is because ChangBin seemed to really like you. He doesn't show it well though. You seemed like someone who kind of fit, too. You put him in his place when you need to. Most of us are too afraid to. We do on occasion, but we don't like to push him too much. If we do—we're scared he might snap." Chan sighs as he glances toward the room where ChangBin lay fast asleep.

"He doesn't like me. If he liked me he wouldn't be such an ass. He just wants to use me—honestly though—I'm not against it. At first I hated him, but now I kind of like it. He challenges me." I shrug as I lean back against the couch.