Someone I can't have..

𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚖𝚒𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚔𝚎

JANUARY 4

Y/N POV:

it was only 2 am and i couldn't sleep, thinking about ronald with lavender.

thinking about all the times he's done so much for me, have i done so little for him?

maybe that's why he doesn't like me, i honestly can't read that bloody boy.

he makes my blood boil so much but he also makes me swoon for him.

i know it's wrong, dating ben with out even liking him, but then there comes to ronald which i've basically liked my whole life.

which now it became love.

i started to feel water in my eyes to tears forming and rolling down my cheek to the bottom of my chin.

i had to stay quiet since RON shares a dorm with me, i wish i had a different roommate or just my own dorm.

i couldn't stop crying, watching ronald fall in love with someone else makes my heart shatter into a million pieces.

i went out my dorm room and went to my comfort place,

not ron and i's oak tree it's going to make me think of ron and i.

i went to the astronomy tower.

i love it so much especially with the stars above its so pretty, i looked at the stars just thinking of ron and i looking at the stars on a date.

then a shooting star passed by. it was too quick for me to even make a wish so i was kinda upset.

i kept looking at the stars thinking of imagines with ronald, that made my stomach have that feeling of butterflies.

i slowly closed my eyes and finally went to sleep.
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i woke up from the nice warmth that was on me. i look down and it was a- blanket?

i don't recall bringing a blanket here, as i observe the blanket i see a note.

it seemed like you needed this - ben </3

that's so thoughtful of him, i turn to the side and realized he was right beside me sleeping.

i start to make a smile and just looked at him sleeping, i look at my watch and HOLY SHIT.

i only have an 30 minutes to get ready!

"ben!" i shout shaking him

"hm-?" he started to slowly open his eyes trying to adapt the brightness.

"WE ONLY HAVE 30 MINUTES UNTIL CLASS."

"fuck." he says in a raspy voice.

that kinda gave me a butterfly, am i starting to find bennett attractive again?

"okay i'll go to my common room while you go to yours and i'll see you at potions." he says still with his raspy voice.

that even sent more butterflies.