Eight years ago... (Killuaxreader)

Part 6

By now we are already on the boat, the captain said it would take a day and a half, so the afternoon of the day after tomorrow. We had nothing to do for 36 hours. We could have made new friends, but I was to tired, Gon was to board, and Killua was pissed as hell. He was so pissed and sad, he just sat in the corner of the boat, sulking, and his emotions were so strong, his blood-lust was flooding the whole ship. That, and aura. I felt bad for him so I went over to sit next to him. "Hey Killua? You okay? Wanna talk about it or something? Anything to cheer you up?" As soon as I sat next to him he started to sob, again and I started to lightly cry.
"Y- y/n I- I..."
"Killua please! I know it's really hard, and you can't just instantly get rid of the anger and sadness but... at least try to stop crying! It hurts me to see you like this!"
"I- I'll try... c- can you g- get Gon for me... I- I need to t- talk to him... a- alone"
"O- Okay... love you..."
"S- same...." I went to go find Gon, talking to the captain. Apparently he knew the captain? I couldn't hear what he was talking about, so I just waited on the floor next to him. He finished soon and came over to me, running and waving his arms. Again, tears ran down my face.
"Y/N?? Why are you crying!! Did I do something!?" He came over and hugged me.
"G- Gon.. Killua needs you. I'll be fine, Killua needs you more." Gon didn't even respond, he just went running.

Killua's point of veiw

Gon came running and me, quickly sat down next to me and hugged me.
"G- Gon..." he held on to me tighter and tighter.
"I know you need to talk.. so spit it out." He said in an understanding tone letting me go.
"You know how me and y/n are... t- together.. right?"
"Yeah.. what about it?"
"I- I really love her but.. I want to be there for her... but I feel like I can't... I don't feel like I'm what she needs... I'm to weak for her... I feel like she need someone more than me... someone who is always able to comfort her, always able to take care of her. The only thing I have is always able to love her."
"Killua! You can take care of her and comfort her! It's just now that you can't. Also, in a relationship, as long as you can always love the one your with, your good for each other. That's all that matters in a relationship. Love."
"Th- thanks Gon. For listening I mean."
"No problem. Now go get y/n. When I saw her she was crying because of you."