Broken Smile

Do they really care?

After all what happened I was left thinking about what they have done in the past days for me. It is true that I tried to commit but they were always there. To think that they would actually care for me was something I didn't think of. Until now I was always the opinion that they were only doing this because of them being pro heroes and not to deal with the media.

After Nezu and Midnight left All Might told us that he would be staying over this night to help take care of me. I didn't had anything against it neither did Aizawa nor Mic.

Me: Can I take a bath? I would like to relax and think a little bit.

Mic: Sure little listener. Follow me!

I didn't know the apartment very well besides the Kitchen and the living room. I did know where the toilet was but to my surprise it was not in the bathroom but they had an extra small room for it.

Mic was so kind as to show me where the bathroom was. He also got rid of anything sharp inside before he let me enter it and gave me a change of clothed from my bag too.

Mic: Here you go. Take as much time as you need. We probably will knock if you are in there for long so please just answer us and we will leave.

Me: Okay.

After that I went in and locked the door. He never didn't say I was not allowed to lock it after all. Once everything was done I began filling the bathtub with warm water and got in.

I personally loved just laying there and be with myself thinking about anything and everything. It was relaxing being in there too.

Not selfishness he said...

I wonder if they really care..

Nah! There is no way they would do that!

But Aizawa really is starting to freak me out. He is different than usual.

Not to mention what Mic said...

His kitten...

Maybe Nezu is right and they care.

Stop thinking like that no one would care about me.

Why not?

REASONS!

Just look at my mom!

She never cared for her own flesh and blood why would they start caring for a student?

But All Might does feel like a father.

He always tries to spend more time with me even in his skeleton form.

Though he never actually taught me how to use OfA...

Did he even care?

I mean he did tell me there is no way to become a hero and not even 24h later he was there nearly in front of my house telling me it was possible and to become his successor.

I do wonder why he chose me?

A quirkless kid...

Maybe he took pity on me?

But what if he was stunned about my heroic act that day? He was watching after all!

Then again all the pros did scold me for just running into a situation quirkless...

But look at Aizawa!

His quirk doesn't help him in a fight and he is still a successful pro!

Yeah...

But he still grew up with that quirk...

Wait!

He was bullied all his live and tried to commit too! That means he never had someone that cared for him in his family and yet he is still there!

Me: *Sigh*

I wonder if he really means what he says.

I am a student of him and he is still my teacher. There is no way he wouldn't do anything to help me!

But Aizawa called me kitten!

He might care!

He saved me!

He is a Goddamn pro!

Of course he saved me!

But he is different! He knows the feeling of being tired of going on!

He really is different! The situation we are in are different! He tried committing because he couldn't go on any longer and didn't see any other way! I am trying to commit because I want to escape this bored life and all the expectations. He wouldn't know!

Stop being pessimistic!

Why be optimistic!

Me: *Yawn*

Today was a rather hectic day and I didn't sleep much considering that I tried to commit in the night and Hawks caught me and took me with him.

The bath was very relaxing and I couldn't help but feel tired all of the sudden. It felt like I was suck into the warm water.

I wonder if I could test my theory out?

If they really care than that would mean that if I do something stupid and not lethal that they would still care.

Maybe act sad and make them think that I have a break down?

No!

Every hero in the world would immediately try and help a child having a mental break down.

But Sadness maybe the key for this.

If I try and act sad or tell them a fake reason I should be able to see how they react.

Sadness...

How do I manage to make them think I am sad when in reality I don't feel anything?

I could also try and anger them.

A stupid mistake maybe?

Destroy something on "accident" that they like. They should be angry like everyone but they should also care for me if I hurt myself while destroying the thing.

I wouldn't be better than Bakugo but that helps and I could pull that one off.

The question is what do I destroy?

A mug?

Maybe Aizawa's goggles?

No that would be way too hard to break.

A vase or something?

No...

Me: *Yawn*

Instead of breaking I should try and make breakfast for them.

I could "accidently" burn myself and not tell them.

I might be able to see their reaction and how long they need to find out I burned myself.

.... Would that be a good idea though?

How about Pancakes?

That should be easy to do.

Yeah....

Me: Yawn

.... let's do that .....

Though one thing was clear to me Aizawa was definitely treating me different than before. However as I was making a plan to test them I felt sleeper with each passing second. This bad was so relaxing that I couldn't help it and before I knew it I fell asleep after having a small discussion in my head and coming to one result.