彡 epiphany; technoblade

fourteen

instead of hiding away in the ravine to stay safe and hidden, you decided to stare at the sky from a tall tree. it reminded you of the time dream showed up, causing you to be kicked out of pogtopia. you didn't care at the moment though, for some reason you kept thinking about techno.

what happened? was he ok? you have never seen him like that before. it was scary honestly, and you blamed schlatt for putting him in that situation. you also wanted to comfort tubbo but ever since the election you two kind of drifted apart.

it was getting dark and you didn't really notice until the sun disappeared and the stars illuminated the night sky. it was beautiful and calming, which was one of the reasons you fell asleep. your body was tired from running and shaking all day, you were so exhausted.

when you woke up, the sun shined down on you brightly. it was supposed to be nice but you were annoyed by the super intense sunlight, it really wasn't your thing. as soon as you hopped off the tree, you decided to find technoblade and see if he was ok.

first you checked everywhere in the ravine and asked around, but no one saw him since yesterday. tommy seemed kind of angry at you for trying to find him but you shrugged it off. you stopped on your way to the exit to visit tubbo.

his door creaked lightly when you pushed it open, causing him to look up. you gasped audibly at his appearance, his hands were covered in bandages and half of his face had a huge scar stretching from his chin to his eyes. tubbo's fluffy hair was just above his eyes, it bounced lightly as he turned his head to look at you. you instantly felt your heart break, you couldn't imagine how this must have been like for him.

"tubbo..." you whispered, sitting down on his bed next to him. he noticed that your eyes were glossy as you scanned him with worry. "how are you feeling?"

"could be better." he smiled and replied simply, he was happy to see you again and it made him feel nice that you cared about him.

you smiled back sadly, "i'm so sorry. i should have been there for you and the others..." it was true, you started to feel like this was your fault, a small voice in your head kept telling you that it wouldn't be this way if you hadn't left.

"no, don't say that. you are not to blame, ok? i'm glad you're okay." tubbo said while fiddling with the bandaging on his arms. you could tell by the look on his face that he really meant it.

"thank you tubbo. if you need anything, let me know." you replied and left the room, sending him one last smile as you walked out and closed the door.

at least tubbo was ok. he had some painful looking scars but you were happy to be reassured that he it wasn't his last life. after that you headed towards the cold stone stairs that were lit with hanging lanterns and torches, hoping to go outside and somehow find techno. as you took the first step a firm hand on your shoulder suddenly pulled you back down, almost causing you to fall off the stairs.

"what the he-" you turned around only to be met with tommy's tired face. it almost made you feel bad for him, but then you remembered what he just did.

"y/n, you can't go outside, it's too dangerous. everyone is looking for us." he stated, no emotion to be heard in his usually loud and energetic voice. this wasn't your younger brother, he was quiet, tired and even his hair looked sad. you didn't know hair could look sad.

"but techn-" you started but he cut you off, to your annoyance.

"technoblade chose not to come here. he's perfectly capable of taking care of himself and i am sure he will return sometime."

you stared at him in disbelief. was he really not worried at all? you weren't stupid, you knew he could protect himself, but after what schlatt did to him you weren't sure if he was in the right state of mind.

"seriously. did you see him?? he wasn't ok. we need to find him..." you retorted angrily.

"no. you're safe here and we cannot risk losing anyone else."

for some reason that last sentence hit you in the chest, you thought of how everyone was slowly going insane under the pressure of losing manberg. maybe your friends also needed you right now. you hoped that you made the right decision as you brushed past tommy and found a small place to sit and think, alone. tommy was right, it was as dangerous as ever, but it didn't stop you from hoping with all your heart that techno was ok. he was the onky one who seemed to really care for you and you adored him for it.

a few moments later a rustling noise came from somewhere, and a small figure appeared next to you.

"hey you ok?" the voice said, and as it approached you recognized the iconic beanie, it was quackity, no doubt. he had dark bags under his eyes and gaint bruises covering his body, but his demeanor seemed happy as usual.

"yeah, just thinking." you replied sadly. he looked at you with worry and sat down on a rock next to you.

"wanna talk about it?" he asked quietly. you were surprised and thought for a few moments, could you trust him? he was the only one there for you at the moment, willingly spending time with you and offering to listen to you vent. it was nice of him, you felt a bit better just by his presence.

"okay..." you started telling him about everything. from the beginning,  when you came back to see the election, to getting exiled and finding techno, until the very moment when you were worried as heck, spending all of your time wondering if he was ok. quackity listened quietly, not interrupting you. as you spoke it felt nice, getting this off your shoulders was something you needed. finally someone understood what you were dealing with.

you ended up talking for hours, he also told you how schlatt treated him after winning the election, and running away to join pogtopia. it felt like you had known him for so long, you suddenly considered him your best friend. it felt reassuring, like something positive actually happened in your life. maybe there was room for hope.

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i promise i'm going to finish this book, i'd feel too guilty if i discontinued it. updates may be slow though :')

sorry for any typos! i suck at typing and autocorrect is a bitch