I See You (Jungkook × Reader) 18+

C H A P T E R 4 4

*Wednesday*

Y/n's Pov

I woke up feeling too hot. Opening up to get my groggy mind awake and in senses, I slowly opened my eyes. My limbs felt as if I was tied up somewhere. They can't move.

Waking up fully, I realized I was tightly wrapped up in several blankets with only my face out. Several freaking blankets.

I groaned trying to free my arms.

"You woke up? How are you? Can you hear me? Are you okay?"

"Jungkook?" I groaned out. My voice hoarse and weak.

"Mark. But you want me to get him?" He asked me in a calm tone.

I saw his worried yet soft features. Getting his help to unwrap myself, I lifted up and leaned against the headboard.

"We faught." I said in a tiny voice to Mark.

He looked down at his lap mumbling. "I know."

"Did you... did you tell him?" I asked fearing what his answer would be.

"I did."

"Why?"

"It wasn't fair for him. He didn't know anything."

"He didn't have to know." I said.

"He did! I told you to tell him. So many times cause it's better he knows but you were scared. Why were you so scared?"

"It's not a pleasant thing to say to the person that loves you." I said feeling guilty.

I should have at least let him know. But I was scared and reluctant. What if he leave me for that?

Was I selfish?

"He told you of all the stuff he did knowing full well that it isn't pleasant. He trusted you with his entire life and told you everything of his past. Yet you didn't." Mark pointed out making my heart ache. I'm such a failure when it comes to communication.

"Don't make me feel guilty." I mumbled.

"No. I want to make you feel guilty. You have only ever opened upto me and Mina. It's time you let Jungkook in completely. He loves you. I can see that like very well. Heck even dad saw it. Yet I'm... getting mixed feeling from you." He said honestly.

"I love him. I love him so much."

"Then trust him. Show him that you trust him, that you love him. Do you want to?"

"Yes."

This is all my fault. I should have let him know. It is all my fault. Gosh how stupid am I to hide something important like this?

But even if he knew, will that have changed how he reacted to that situation?

If he had known, will he ask the same question still?

"Do you want to talk to Jungkook?" He asked.

I do. I miss him so much.

I nodded and smiled at Mark who returned the smile back. He got up and leaving a kiss on my forehead, left me to go find Jungkook.

I feel nervous about meeting him. The fault was on both of us but now it's mostly on me. I should have told him. That I have the fear of abandonment. I always feared that he would leave me. Seeing the girls he used to be with was hard enough as I found myself comparing to them everyday when I see my face.

When he saw my body, I felt the panic attack rising but I stayed calm to enjoy being with him. I was scared afterwards thinking that he would leave now. But he didn't. He never did.