Waiting For You // sequel to N&F

Chapter 4

A lot of people and fans were asking me what happened on stage at DigiFest on social media. I decided to tell them by making a YouTube video about it explaining, well, everything. Just so the confusion clears up.

Again, I haven't told anyone what happened except for Peyton, so this was going to be hard. But I got my camera, and I started explaining the story.

"Um, some of you know that 3 and a half years ago, I was dating Sam Wilkinson, and I was in love with him. He's actually, part of the reason why I'm here today. But what happened on that stage, well let me start from the beginning."

A tear rolled down my face but I kept going. I guess I could edit that out later.

"Sam and I were in a fight, and it was just when he found out that I applied for this school in New York. It lasted for a couple weeks, until I came home and my friends threw a surprise birthday party for me. Because my birthday was the day after I left all of them to be here."

"Sam showed up, and he brought me outside. He told me that he was letting me go, to be my own person because I was finally going where I wanted to go. He ended up leaving, I don't know where, but i haven't seen him since. Until Digi, I didn't know what to do and I guess I just broke down."

I was crying, and I knew I couldn't edit that out.

"I just thought you guys should know the truth, and I don't know why I'm getting so emotional over this, but you guys support me and I love you for that. I don't know what I would do without you, I know this is a place where I don't feel alone. Um, I will be in Omaha Nebraska this weekend after my graduation, so if my omahomies wanna come meet up, I will be more than happy to see you. So, until next week, I love everyone of you and make sure to subscribeee. Thank you."

I finished the video and edited out some stuff, then I started to get ready for the day, it was only 8 in the morning.

I decided to upload right away and get it over with. Peyton and I got some stuff for graduation which was,
tomorrow.

Wow.

I got dressed in some leggings with a tank top from Anthropology and flip flops. I threw my hair in a messy bun, grabbed my sunglasses, and we were out. We decided to call an Uber and then we were out to Times Square.

"El?" I looked at Peyton and she looked miserable. "Yes Pey?" She sighed and looked out the window. "I need to tell Max how I feel before they move out. His dumbass little girlfriend is making him move in with her once our graduation is over. Is he blind? She's a total whore." I laughed but then I rested my head on her shoulder.

"If you really love Max, you should tell him how you feel and follow your heart. "
"Okay. I'm gonna do it today. Today. Don't let me back down okay?" I nodded and she rested her head on top of mine. "How did I find an amazing friend like you?" I responded. "From that stupid welcomes party. But I guess that got us pretty far."

We reached the 4 floor Victoria Secret in Times Square and we instantly ran in. This store is one of my favorites.

Then LuLuLemon, then Forever 21, then a bunch of other places. We took pictures with some fans, and we got lunch at Urth Caffe.

I heard my phone ringing and I see Johnsons contact appear.
"Yo J what's good?"
"I saw your video El, are you doing okay?" I sighed but then I said, "Yeah I'm okay. He just startled me that's all." I heard his end move a little, and then someone else came on the phone.

"El." Sam. "Uh, hi."
"I never meant to scare you, Nate surprised us both."
I looked at Peyton and she knew what was going on.
"Yeah, I know. I feel like we need to talk about some things. Will you meet me at Urth right now?" Peyton shot me a death glare and I smiled sarcastically at her. "Yeah, of course. I'll be there in 20." I hung up.

"Hello, did you forget about Peyton?"

"Hello, no! Have the Uber drive you back, go tell Max how you feel, and I'll either come back happy or sad. Okay?" She gave me the finger and left. I laughed, waited 20 minutes, and I see Sam walk through the doors. Then he spotted me, and I instantly regretted all of this.

"Hey, El." I motioned for him to sit down. "So where did you go?"
"What?" "Where did you go when you, left?"

He looked down at his hands and said, "I drove as far away as possible. I never really had a plan. I just ended up in LA and I bought an apartment, then when I got settled there, I saw you made a YouTube and since then.."
I looked at him and I saw he looked different. He had darker hair, he was more in shape. He was taller, and he definitely got more attractive.

"Why didn't you call, or anything? Not a day passed I didn't think of you, I listened to that necklace at least 4 times a day." He looked up at me and I saw the only thing that hasn't changed, was his eyes. "You looked happy, like a real happy. I didn't want to intrude, on your new life."

I nodded, it made sense.
"Do you have a girlfriend now?" He shook his head. Damn, I was surprised. "Boyfriend?" I shook my head no.

We sat, talking about our current lives and what's been happening.

"I miss you, a lot." I played with my hands, its kind of become a habit whenever I got kind of nervous. "I don't know what to do, I mean I graduate tomorrow, and I don't even have a plan for my future. I'm a mess, I miss you more than ever but I don't know if I'm ready to have you back,"

Sam reached over and grabbed my hand, and I just couldn't look at him.
"El, look at me." His eyes met mine, and it felt like I got stabbed in the chest. And I'm not exaggerating.
"When you come to make up your mind, and you're set with a plan, don't let anything stop you. We might not be together, but just know I'm here for you. I still love you."

I stood up and said, "I'm supposed to meet Peyton at the apartment, but I'll get in touch with you." Sam nodded and before I walked out the door, he hugged me and it felt just like it used to feel. It reminded me of dancing with him to his old records, as silly as that sounded.

"You and me, good luck with graduation." I nodded and smiled at him, and I left. I called a taxi, and I left back to my apartment. I don't know when I was gonna see him again, but I felt weird. He's changed so much, but yet it feels like he hasn't changed at all. It's probably just me.

But i know I'll see him again.