Fix you - Harry Styles fanfic - AU

Six

***Kenzi's POV***

After school I walk straight home, I find all the boys sat at the table eating, all but Louis of course. Being this distant from him is killing me we never fought like this before; this is the longest we’ve gone without talking to each other. What if he never forgives me, I should have never said that to him.

“Uh… earth calling Kenzi?” Niall snaps me out of my thoughts.

“Sorry guys I was a bit… distracted.” I say and join them at the table.

“It’s ok little sis, Louis is in his room by the way.” Liam informs me.

“He is? Did he say anything about… you know.” I ask looking down. Maybe he talked with the boys about it. I hope he did, I hope he forgives me too.

“No Kenz, he just walked in and went straight upstairs.” Zayn tells me.

“I’m going to talk with him.” I try to sound as determined as I possibly can and leave the table.

“Lou?” I knock on his door but obviously all I get in return is silence. “Lou c’mon, we need to talk.” I wait a few minutes but still no response from him. “You know what, fine, don’t open the door but know that I’ll be sitting right here in front of it until you do.” I warn him, he has to come out at some point and I’ll be right here when that moment comes.

“Kenzi, go away, we don’t have anything to talk about, you’ve already said everything.” I could hear the hurt in voice and I just want to slap myself for hurting him.

“No, please just let me explain, Louis, please.” I feel horrible, he has always been there for me, through anything and I just hurt him. I wait for his response but after a few minutes of silence I know he’s not going to say anything. Suddenly I hear him unlocking the door and opening it for me. I literally jump on him and give him the biggest hug I’ve ever given anyone in my life. He doesn’t hug back straight away but eventually I feel his arms embracing me and for a second it’s like we never argued at all.

“Kenz-“ he starts but I interrupt him.

“No, let me go first.” I tell him and he nods. “I was really stupid, Lou, I should have never said that, I don’t know what came over me I was just getting so angry! You need to know that I didn’t mean it. You’re the best brother anyone could ever ask for, you and the boys have always been there for me no matter what, you mean the world to me and no, you’re not mum and dad but you’re just as amazing as them. I’m really, really sorry Lou, please forgive me.” I look at his now teary eyes and then at the smile forming in his lips.

“Come here you.” He says and hugs me tight.

“So… does that mean you’re not mad at me anymore?” I say not breaking the hug.

“I was never mad at you; I was just really upset because I thought you actually meant it.” He said and I’m consumed with guilt all over again.

“I’m sorry; I really didn’t mean it Lou.” I hug him tighter and he does the same.

“It’s ok now, don’t worry about it. Just please don’t get in trouble again.”

“Yes sir, it won’t happen again.” We laughed at what I just said and after hanging out with him for a bit we have dinner, I have a shower and go to bed.

***

“Well hello there.” I greet the boy in front of me.

“Oh, look who’s back to her normal self.” He replies and I just get really confused.

“What do you mean?”

“Never mind, what do you want anyways?” God! Does have to be so rude all the time?!

“In case you forgot, we have a project to do.” I state in a cold tone but not as cold as him, not even close to be honest.

“I didn’t forget. Just meet me at the gates after school and we’ll walk to mine.” I wanted to say ‘what if I don’t want to go to yours?’ because his tone was too bossy for me but I didn’t. I just nodded and sat down in front of him.

“Aren’t you going to sit with your friends?” He asked.

“Can’t be bothered to walk” I explained with a smile. We stayed quiet for a few minutes and it was becoming a bit awkward and frustrating. “Why do you want me to leave so bad? Do I smell or something? Am I that annoying?” I can see he was surprised as his eyes widen and he just stares at me for a few seconds.

“No, you don’t smell and you’re a bit annoying but you’re not that bad at all. It’s not you ok, it’s me.” He says and I can’t quite figure if it’s a compliment or not. I was about to ask what he meant by ‘it’s not you, it’s me’ but the bell interrupted me with that irritating sound sending everyone to their last lesson of the day.

After school we walked to his house, when we get there he opens the door for me.

“Wow, didn’t know you were a gentleman.” I joke and he laughs a little bit.

“Am I missing something here?” Asks a male voice that doesn’t belong to Harry, I turn to where the voice came from and see a man (probably his dad even though they don’t really look alike) walking towards us.

“Uh… dad, this is Kenzi, we’re doing a project together.” He explains. I can see that he’s nervous and uncomfortable with this situation but I can’t really do anything about it so I just smile.

“Nice to meet you, Kenzi, I’m Des.” The man says in a sweet tone and a warm smile.

“Nice to meet you too, Mr Styles.” I politely reply.

“Ok, we need to go now dad.” Harry informs still frustrated with the situation.

“Of course, if you need anything just shout I’ll be downstairs.” He says and Harry leads me upstairs where I guess his room is.

I saw him open the door and I couldn’t help but feel nervous. It’s stupid I know but I was going to be in his room alone, with him! I walked in and looked around paying attention to every single thing. I made my way to his bed, sat on it and placed my bag on the floor near my feet. He looked at me kind of annoyed but didn’t say anything. Ok, maybe I shouldn’t have done that. Oh well I already did so whatever.

We’ve been working on the project for a couple of hours now and I was getting tired. Harry was so cold and distant I wonder what’s wrong with him. Why is he so cold? Was he always like this? Did someone make him like this? I did make him laugh a couple of times. He can be really nice when he wants but he would just turn back to his cold self minutes later.  

“I think we need a break!” I told him putting some papers on his bed.

“I think we should continue tomorrow.” He said with his deep raspy voice.

“What’s wrong?” I moved closer to him and he moved away from me.

“Nothing’s wrong I think it’s late, just that.” As he stood up I did the same, he looked so tense his eyes full of pain but why?

“Harry talk to me, what’s wrong?” I put my hands on his chest and he got even tenser with my touch. He removed my hands from his body and took a few steps back putting some distance between us.

“Kenzi we can’t be friends.” He said almost in a whisper but loud enough for me to hear.

“Why? I don’t get it!”

“I can’t. I’m sorry. I think you should leave now.” He cut me off and I could see that the words were hurting him as much as they were hurting me. I saw him go to the door to open it for me and I felt like I was going to cry. With all my strength I start grabbing my stuff and walked towards him again.

“If you change your mind, you know where to find me.”

“That’s not going to happen. I’m sorry Kenzi.”

“You’re saying sorry but you’re still pushing me away, I wish you’d tell me why.”

“Kenzi… I…”

“It’s alright Harry, bye."

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