I'm just tired of it
Looking in the mirror and never seeing myself
I'm a glitch
I'm a broken being
I'm in a broken body
I don't know who I am
I am lost to my own pains
I forgot myself
My own traumas guided me to pain and loss
I have no say for myself
I am told what to do
Who I am
Who I'm supposed to be
Non of it is true to me
I'm not knowing what is true
I'm not knowing what is me
I feel like a complete failure
I feel like what they said is right
I'm a complete loser
I lost
What I lost I don't know
I don't know what I'm doing
I don't know what I want
I don't know what I'm supposed to do
I don't know what I'm supposed to want
I have nothing to prove
Whenever I try to work or help on something I'm always met with neglect blame and shame
Somehow I'm never allowed to play this life , game
I'm a pos
I'm a loser
Shame me?
Shame what?
What am I ?
Why did I ever care about it
Why do I always get attacked
For what?
For who?
Why do I feel like I'm always lost
Why do I feel like I cannot trust myself
Why do I feel like I cannot have my own say
Why do I feel like I cannot keep myself or be at peace
Why do I feel like everyone and everything neglects me
Why do I feel like I hate myself
What do I hate about myself
So I'm a bad person for hating myself
So I'm not even allowed to dislike myself?
So on top of not being allowed to care about anything , I'm not allowed to dislike anything?
Am I a joke ?
Am I an offence ?
Am I a loser ?
Am I worthless?
I guess I can't deserve nothing
I guess I should just perish
I guess I'm useless
I guess I'm supposed to enjoy pain
I guess I'm supposed to put you above me
I guess I am just supposed to die
I guess I'm just supposed to hate myself
I guess I'm just supposed to worship you
I guess I'm just supposed to lose everything about me
I guess I'm just supposed to pretend I don't matter
I guess I'm supposed to pretend I don't exist
I guess I'm worthless
I guess I'm horrible
I guess I shouldn't care about what people think of me , I guess I shouldn't care about myself
I guess I'm retarded
I guess other people need to tell me everything about me
I guess I should just fucking die
I guess I should be considered a horrible person
