He hasn't talked to me all week. He didn't wake me up in the mornings. Calum bathes him and doe his hair. Ashton drives him to school and back. They say it's just a phase, and he'll talk to me soon. I don't think soon is soon enough if that makes sense. I miss my little baby boy. It's friday, the Fallows talk him today for the weekend. I won't see him till Sunday and he won't talk to me. I'm trying everything in me to not cry in front of him. I do it in my room.
Jazzy won't even make fun of me about my height. She comes over more, for Mika's sake. I can tell he wants to talk to me but, his stubbornness won't let him. Jazzy has an older sister, a year younger than me. She's 22. She's the same girl I saw that day I came back from the cemetery. She's living with Jane now. Her mother, the lady that breastfed Mika. When she comes to pick up Jazzy, she doesn't talk. Neither do I .
I woke up on my own today. I watched as the boys got Mika ready for school. He bit back his smile when he saw me. I'll take what I can get. I hope it's just a phase.
"Come on Mika, time to go." Ashton announced. I watched as Mika looked around for his backpack. It was under the kitchen table. It's always there. I've been handing him his bag all week. I grabbed it and handed it to him, not expecting a 'thank you'.
"I love you daddy." He said hugging onto my right leg tightly. "I don't hate you." He confessed. I would cry but, I don't think I have anymore tears to shed.
"I love you too, soldier." I hugged him back.
"If you want me to go with mommy's family, I will daddy. Just no more crying ok?" He promised, with a smirk that Michael taught him. How did he know I've been crying?
"We all heard you these past nights. It's ok Luke, a real man cries for his son." Calum said. I just laughed, I don't know what to say.
"Ok now go on to school, I'll pack your bag." I said lightly pushing him to Ashton. He nodded and ran out of the house with Ashton.
"I got my little soldier back!" I screamed to Calum and Michael. They laughed.
"Thank god, now I don't have to do that dam quiff everyday. I do a horrible job. He needs to learn to do it himself luke." Michael complained.
"He does." I chuckled. He whispered something about Mika being a little shit. I laughed harder.
"Told you he's a monster." Calum said to Michael. He then turned to me. "It's glad to see you, yourself again, lad." I nodded and headed to Mika's room to pack.
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I packed 2 pairs of black skinny jeans and 1 pair of blue jeans. 1 SpongeBob shirt, one mini Nirvana shirt, and one 5sos shirt. With a 5sos hoodie. His back and white chuck's, he has on his vans already. I packed 3 allergy pins and his large soldier action figure.
All day me and the boys has been practicing some new songs. Then it was time to pick up Mika. I told Ash that I would go this time.
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Finally, I saw him and Jazzy walking out with the rest of the class. The teacher noticed me and waved, signaling mika and Jazzy to come to me. They both hopped in the back.
"So your mom wants me to take you?" I asked. It's not a big deal. Jane has done that plenty of times. I remember one time she did that and I didn't even know about Jazzy. Imagine a 4 year old girl hopping in your car while punching your sons arm calling him a nerd. Yeah.
Mika gave her a thumbs up. Oh so it's ok to talk to me now, I think.
"Yeah big guy." She confirmed. That's my nickname to her, cause I'm oh so tall.
