"Um, I-I know you wont forgive me after this but-" He cut me off
"Just tell me already" mattheo said
"I kissed harry" I whispered and I am pretty sure he didnt catch that.
"Why are you whispering? I couldnt hear-"
"I kissed harry!" I yelled
He just looked at me shocked. He backed away.
"Mattheo, mattheo just listen to me...." I said but he kept distance with me and backed away.
"I-how could you. I love you." he said
"a-and I love you too-"
"Did you kiss him back?" he asked and I stayed silent. "Well I guess I got my answer"
"Mattheo just hear me out, I am leav-" I was trying to tell him that I was leaving but he kept cutting me off.
"Leave, just leave"
"Theo, please"
"I dont want to see you again" he said and thats when I stopped trying.
"I just want you to know that I love you more then anyone" and with that I left his dorm.
I had my back against the wall and I sat down, legs attached to my chest and my head buried in my knees. I cried. I fucked up. I didnt love harry. I didnt want to kiss him. But I still fucking did because I am fucking stupid.
I just wanted to run away.
So I packed my bags and left. With hermione, ron and harry. And I swore to myself that I would never smile until I find someone who can love me like mattheo.
And I left a letter, for him.
Mattheo's pov:
How could she do this? Why would she? I already miss her, her lips, her smile, her laughter, her soft silky hair. I was in my thoughts when draco bursted into my room.
"Dude! Have you seen nicole?" he asked
"She left my dorm about an hour ago. Why?" I asked
"No one can find her, ron, harry and hermione" he said
"What?" and then I remembered my conversation with her. She was trying to tell me something. What the fuck mattheo! Why didnt you listen to her.
I went to her dorm. I searched the whole dorm and finally found a paper, which looked like a letter on her desk. I opened it. My name was written there. It was for me.
To mattheo,
Hey,
By the time you're reading, I am probably long gone. I know I fucked up, and I am a stupid fucking bitch to ever let such an amazing person like you go. You deserve the world mattheo. And I am just not good enough for you, I am going to hurt you again just like I did today. So I am probably gone for good, I want to see you happy. So forget about me, I am just another one of those dumb bitches trying to get you, I was just a small pest in your awesomely amazing life. Find someone great, find someone better, find someone who loves you like you loved me......I know I'll never be good enough, but I will always love you. You made me find the true me, you made my life so much better by bringing light to it and I want someone to do the same for you, because I know I'll never be that light. I always wanted to call you mine, but I guess its just not in the cards. A part of me, will always be yours.
I am so sorry for fucking up your life, I am so sorry for not being that light, I am so sorry for hurting you, and I am so so sorry for leaving you like this. But remember my words, 'Its for the best'. I love you and will never forget about you.
I love you,
Take care,
Nicole
I was crying by the time I finished the letter. Why was she fucking saying that, she was always perfect for me, she was the light in my life. She was never a fucking pest! She was my first love. She made me stand up and disobey my father, which I never thought I would ever be able to do.
I held the paper tightly and let the tears and emotions fall off my cheeks.
Why did I not listen to her! God I am such a fucking idiot.
"I am so sorry, just please, please come back. I dont fucking know what I'll do without you. Please.......just, just come back"
But I knew she was long gone.
A ring catched my eye. It was on her desk. It was hers. Obviously it was too small for me. So I hung it up on my chain and wore it.
I knew what I had to do, I'll find her. But I knew I couldnt do it alone. I got up and saw chessy, blaise and draco in the common room.
"Come on, pack up your bags. Chop chop, you got 15 minutes. Oh and blaise get some packed or canned food. Chessy grab water or soda bottles. Draco I want you to get that book of yours with all kinds of spells and stuff" I said
They all just looked at me, confused.
"What?" I asked
"So you just barge in and give us fucking orders? Do you realize my best friends are gone! And I AM FUCKING CRYING" chessy said
"Yeah dude, you out of all people should be balling your eyes out. Besides she was like a little sister to me." blaise said
"I know but crying wont get her back now would it?" I said
"So what are you exactly saying?" draco asked
"Yeah where are we really going?" blaise asked
"To find her" I said
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Hey bitches:) See, I uploaded this chapter right after the last one. Arent am I fucking amazing, pffffttt I know I am! Tell me something I dont know. Well, I guess thats the end:) Hope you guys enjoyed this shitty story. Oh and probably no sequel is coming so ya lol. I know I am not getting any comments and votes but if you want a sequel,
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Good the hell bye (What the fuck did I just say)
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