Save Me Before It's Too Late

Chapter 17

Dylan's POV

"Dylan, I've been waiting for the right moment to tell you this, but no time ever seemed as right as now." My head was laying on Kellin's chest as we laid in a field under the stars.

I looked up at him to meet his eye's. His eyes were stunning right now. I mean they are stunning all the time, but they sparkled especially bright under the moonlight and stars.

"I swear to a god that I do not believe in, Kellin, if you propose-" I said before he cut me off, chuckling through it.

"Dylan, I am most certainly not proposing, but I do have to say something big."

He paused to take a long breath of air in.

"Dyl, I am in love with you."

I looked at him in shock. Love?! No. Heck no.

I started thinking about it more and more, and it felt like my throat was closing up. I was gasping for air.

I clawed at my throat, trying to breathe. I saw the worry in Kellin's eye's, as he stood up, and trying to tell me to breathe.

"Breathe Dylan. Breathe. In. And out. In. Out. In. Out."

As much as he was trying to help, it didn't seem to work. I stood up and ran, still gasping for air.

I hit the tour bus and swung open the door, looking for anybody but Kellin. I spotted Austin first and ran up to him.

He looked at me and smiled, but then realized what was happening, and immediately started trying to help me.

"Dylan. I need you to breathe. Okay? Ready? One, two, three. In. Out. In. Out." He said breathing with me.

Eventually my breathing evened out, and he pulled me close.

"Dyl. What happened? Why were you having a panic attack?" He asked me, running his fingers through my hair.

"Kellin just..." I started, freaking out a bit inside my head.

"Kellin what, darling? What did he do? Did he hurt you? I'll kill him, I swear I will." He asked getting protective.

I blushed at the nickname he gave me.

Wait- why am I thinking about a pet name Austin gave me while Kellin just told me he loves me?!

I'm glad my head was buried in his chest, so he didn't get to see the heat that has risen to my cheeks.

"He... He told me he loved me. And I didn't know what to do. I started having a panic attack, and ran." I said, my eyes starting to water once again.

"You didn't say it back? Why not? I thought things were going great between you two?"

"They were, but I can't tell him I love him." I tried to explain to him.

"Why not?" He asked, curiously.

"You know, Austin, curiosity killed the cat." I said laughing at the end. This is really no time for jokes, but what the hell.

"Ha. Ha. I'm just trying to figure out what triggered things. Gosh!" He said flailing his arms around and laughing along with me.

"Fine. I'll tell you, but dude, stop being a drama queen. I mean, who knew the lead screamer of a big, scary, heavy metal band is such a drama queen."

"Oh, just shut up and tell me."

I nodded and took in a breath.

"Because I love someone else." I said as I looked up, and see his face fall.