𝐛𝐫𝐢𝐝𝐠𝐞 𝐛𝐨𝐲 ~ 𝐣𝐣 𝐦𝐚𝐲𝐛𝐚𝐧𝐤

.chapter four. ~ .emotions are for children.

heyyy! i genuinely didn't think i'd get to this. ever. but TYSM FOR 50 READSSS.
i'll be releasing a chapter for every 10-15 reads depending on how much i get written :)
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we sat in the new living room and i had so many questions, first off why the fuck is he here, second, did my mum invite him? and third, just what the actual fuck?

"tell me a bit about you then?" "sadie right?"

he said, trying to make conversation with me.
"oh well yeah it's sadie, umm, i live on the cut, so the south side of the island and just with some friends" "how about you? how'd you end up here"

i asked, in hope i'd be able to find the answer to why the fuck is the prettiest guy i've ever met doing in my mothers house. "we'll im originally from the cut, grown up there all my life until a few nights ago when i got lost and your mum offered to help me?" "so i took the help and here we are"

he laughed and smiled at me yet i didn't move a muscle in my face. i stared blankly at the coffee table.

"you say you got lost?"

i asked, he took a deep breath "well, not really," "you see.."

"hello loves!" exclaimed winnie as she walked through the doorway, she set our drinks down on the table and sat right next to me opposite jj. "what are you two up to then?" the old woman said "getting to know eachother?"

she smiled in hope we'd say something like yes. i didn't speak and jj kept looking at me, "well actually mrs fallon, sadie and i were just talking about when you found me when i was lost."

the blonde blue eyed boy said with a surprisingly wide smile on his face.

every time he smiled i just thought

shit. he's pretty.

"oh yes my darling, i remember that night very well, one i'll never forget, i found jj along the bridge, i got out of my car to see if he was okay as all these horrid, horrid people drive past carelessly about this sweet boy."

so my mom. saved him. she got out of her car, talked him out of fucking suicide.
and saved him.

she said giving him a tight hug from where she was sat. he looked really uncomfortable so i stretched "accidentally" knocking her arm out the way of him.

"thanks" he whispered at me before we both giggled. well fake giggled. knowing that could have been me, and out of all people it had to be winnie. that shit hurts. but i'm just glad he's okay.

"i'll be back in a minute darls" winnie says as she leaves the room, me and jj sit in silence for a minute or 2 until i break it by asking

"you don't fancy getting a bit mucky and coming to the beach with me and some of the pogues this afternoon?" i asked, hoping the pretty blonde one would say yes.

"i'd love to."

he says with a big smile on his face. i smile and let out some sort of sigh or relief?

i hear a beeping horn for outside as i run to the window and open the blinds, john b's van is pulled up outside and kie is in the front, and pope sat in the back peeking out the window. jj quickly follows behind me "are those your friends?" he asks "yeah, that's kie, the one in the tank top and shell necklace, then john b is the one driving and wearing that blue bandana, and then popes the curly one in the back waving at us."

i explained hoping he'd like them. "they seem cool, if their okay with me hanging with yall im down" he said looking at me.

i lost me breathe again, just looking at him.

john b beeped his car horn again yet this time winnie came running back into the room

"what's all this noise outside dears?" she looks out and john b's face goes blank, he does a very awkward smile and wave and then looks away,

"is that routledge's son?!" she said in disbelief, she scoffed and shooed the pogues away.

"give me a minute," i typed as fast as i could texting kiara.

"mum," i said, which hurt me to call her that "i think my friends are waiting, i best get going," i said, dreading her reply. "i was planning to take jj too, show him round the island and all, he can make new friends with john b, kie and pope too!"

i said again still unsure of what the wicked witch would say. "oh sadie dear don't be so silly, i found him on the cut, like he told you he was lost, i dont want him going back there and especially hanging out with you filthy pogues"

she laughs to herself. "filthy pogues" i thought to myself, what the fuck. "mrs fallon i'd love to meet them all" jj says politely as he looks away from the window.

"nonsense dear, the neither of you are going anywhere" "i've prepared lunch"

she says as she wanders down the hall, jj begins to follow after her yet i yank the blonde boys arm back, it hardly does anything yet he still turns around. "please, please don't stay" i say, as he towers over me. he nods and smiles, i go running down the hall to catch winnie up and he comes not long after me.

"please mum, don't you think it'd be nice, we're gonna go surfing and go in the marsh now it's opened up again!" i said trying to make her believe me that we'd behave.

i was following her around like u used to do to my dad when me and john b would ask him for money because big john said no.

"sadie darling you just don't get it" she said to me in a very soft yet stern voice "your dad grew up as a pogue, and so did you, and it's ruined the both of you, teared you both apart, that's what me and daniel like to say and i'd hate for you to end up just like your fath..."

and before the could even finish the sentence i threw the first punch. for each punch a different word

"don't"

"you"

"ever"

"talk"

"that"

"kinda"

"bullshit"

"about"

"my"

"dad"

i said for a punch i between every word. i looked at jj and he looked so shocked. winnie was lying on the floor and daniel came running in to see blood dripping from her nose and blood on my knuckles

"i always knew you were your dads little bitch sadie"

i grabbed jj's hand and we started to run, we ran through the corridors and up the windy stairs, daniel chasing after us, to say he was 50 something, i think he was doing pretty darn good. i threw my phone out of my pocket into my other hand and called john b

"PICK UP BASTARD"

i screamed into the phone as me and jj ran from him. "in here" jj said into the spare room wardrobe, now let me tell you, from personal experience, being in wardrobe with the prettiest guy you've ever met running from your crazy step father is one of the best things ever happened to me.

"hi john b park the twinkie outside the back door, okay? okay. see u in a min-"

the doors flung open as daniel punched me right in the face. i sat there in agony feeling as if i were to black out, tears began streaming from my face as he hit me more and more,

"routledge's little bitch"

he kept saying, i remember he hit me 3-4 times before he fell to the ground, the pretty blonde boy, the one with the blue eyes, the one who winnie saves and the one who's just knocked out daniel. he punched him several times to make sure we could escape. he scooped me up in his arms and started running down the corridors, tears streamed down my face, i knew this was a shitty idea, but you know what,

who gives a fuck, because emotions, well,

emotions are for children.

hiii.

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thank you again for so many reads <3