As you know I went to prom the worst thing ever happened I come out of the car to see Chad kissing another girl. my heart stopped when I went back to my car crying and crying. I finally got the guts to come out and talk to him he didn't know that I saw him kissing another girl. He nicely told me that he had no feelings for me anymore,and told me he had to go and left me there all alone at the prom that I've been waiting for all my life, my senior prom yet again and that he had broken up with me the night that is suppose to be the best day of my life. Of course I went home and cried and cried all night I also listen to one direction and watched old video diaries the sort of made me better but it hurts to also know the other five of my life's don't know I exist I kept tweeting and tweeting on Twitter with still no reply. I almost did what I have done before. I wanted to commit suicide. I haven't thought about it since my uncle threatened to shoot me. I wanted to do it my self. It would of been better. I got a message from chad on my laptop. But I didn't dare to reply. My eyes are trembling over the words he had said with my sweaty palms tightly held together as I was reading the massage. I freaked and threw my laptop across the room. Thinking to my self, "I just threw my Mac book pro with all of my memory's that don't fit in my phone across my room almost out the window." "what am I doing with my life" I get very angry with my self and decide to write a note In case if anything happens to me that I can't control.
