No Matter What (English version)

Chapter 5

Mae: Hi, so you probably heard Abby in the last recording, and apparently she's in love with someone else but she doesn't want to tell me who even when I ask her. And it's been on my mind for a long time now.

Anyway Michelle and I decided that if nothing changes in a few days, we will fake a relationship to see if we get a reaction or not.

Well, everything has been going great at the barn lately. Except, that we had little earthquakes three days ago, a lot of rain and something that looked like a tornado in some of the fields. So we lost some of our sheep and some of our cultures.

I guess that's all for today. Bye.

End of the recording

Abby: Hi... it feels weird talking to an object. Anyway, my name is Abigail. I'm Mae's best friend. I have no idea if she ever talked about me. She's on patrol with Michelle right now, and since I always saw her talk into that thing, I told myself that maybe it was like talking to someone and feeling better after. So since I really need to talk to someone lately, I'm gonna try.

You see, I have a boyfriend, Newt. Who I've been dating for two and a half years now. And I love him deeply. But recently I discovered that I really like Mae.

You know she's always here for me, no matter what. She's the only person that doesn't see me as a mean person, even when I do bad things. She never judges me, even Newt does but not her. And she's the only one that can make me laugh when I feel like there's no hope anymore.

And she's so beautiful too. And she's smart, and funny and strong.

And I love her.

But I can't just break up with Newt for no reason, because I love him too. I don't know what to do anymore.

I love both of them but I don't know who to choose, I don't even know if Mae likes me. Lately she's always with Michelle, we barely see each other. And I think she likes Michelle, they're always hanging out and flirting.

Anyway, I'm gonna go before she comes back. Bye.

End of the recording.

Mae: Hi, it's been a week since the last recording. Things happened and I didnt felt like talking. Michelle and I agreed on being fake girlfriends. And I was hoping that Abby would get jealous and make a move on me. But it didn't end up the way I imagined.

Flashback (POV Mae)

Michelle and I agreed yesterday that we would fake a relationship. And today's the day I'm going to tell Abby we are dating. She's alone in our room so it's the perfect occasion.

Mae: Hi Abby.

Abby: Hey, what's up?

Mae: Hum... Can we talk or are you busy?

Abby: Of course, we can talk.

I go sit next to her on her bed. She seems a bit worried.

Mae: You know how Michelle and I grew closer since she came in the group?

Abby: Yes, I know. Did you two fight or something?

Mae: No. No, actually we're dating. Yesterday she asked me to be her girlfriend and I said yes.

Abby: Oh.

I can see tears in her eyes but she hides them. She gets up and starts to pace.

Mae: Aren't you happy for me?

Abby: No, of course I am happy for you.

Mae: But?

Abby: I don't like that girl, there's something wrong with her.

Mae: There's nothing wrong with her. She's a nice person. I thought you would be happy for me. I don't like Newt either, but I'm happy for you.

Abby: And why don't you like Newt?

Mae: Because he's a player and one day he'll cheat on you or something.

Abby: He's not. Just because you're jealous of him doesn't mean you have to say that kind of thing about him.

Mae: Why would I be jealous of him?

Abby: I don't know, cause he's stronger, prettier, and has more friends...

Mae: That's really low of you, I thought you were my best friend.

Abby: I am. All I'm saying is that Michelle's not a good person for you. She's hiding something from us, I can feel it.

Mae: You know what if you're not ready to at least be a great friend and be happy for me, I'm just gonna go.

Abby: Then go, run away from the truth. That's what you always do. You're just a coward, always have been and always will be.

Mae: And you're a piece of shit.

She turns towards me. The tears that once were in her eyes, are now rolling on her cheeks.

She gets close to me and I feel a pain in my cheeks. She hit me. Before I can even think, I'm on her on the ground hitting her. We fight, taking all the frustration that has been built up for years, out on each other.

After a minute or two, Craig and Michelle are trying to split us up.

My hands are trembling, my noses bleeding and there's blood on my shirt. I look at Abby and gasp. One of her lips is burst, her nose's bleeding and her shirt has blood stains too.

I can't believe we just fought.

End of flashback

Mae: Since the fight Abby won't talk to me. She's even avoiding me, and it hurts. I don't know what took over me that day, and I regret it. She's always hanging out with Newt. And it's like I don't even exist. I miss her so much.