hopeful

shake things up

The morning sun kissed my face as if my mom woke me up like old times Alas it was a figment of my imagination I often feel like spiraling in the early mornings that being her favorite time.

Getting up to face dad was harder than I anticipated would he still be drunk from the night before? Would he be up making breakfast as a form of apology? Nonetheless neither of my imaginative thoughts existed where I was currently residing

I walked to the refrigerator to see a note with the words "have a good day kiddo see you after work" ew it echoed in my head, what a fake man I thought

besides the uneventful morning that had just begun I had other things to look forward too, a new school with new people and new experiences.
After I got done getting ready I waited for the bus itd been a while since I road a school bus in NYC we just took the subway to school, mother had such a good sense of navigation, when it pulled up the faded yellow lettering stood out to me as aesthetically pleasing

i wasn't desensitized to it like these kids i hadn't been riding a school bus for 11 years.
When we got to school the vibes gave off so much less than I expected maybe all the movies did get in my head

1st period wasn't a movie worthy moment at all I was barely noticed the teacher didn't even bother with an introduction. Passing periods were short & dull sitting on my locker for 5 minutes while staring at these new found strangers like the snake i was

in their territory trying to dissect them with my eyes but too no unveil. When lunch came around i also lost myself in thoughts of the mice I was surrounded with so adjusted to their daily lives they couldn't even bat an eye for a new threat, weak people i thought

When the most beautiful girl passed me once more with her pale skin & effortless being i remembered the night at the beach so elegant in the night she was wow.... my mouth dried up with sour nerves why couldn't she say hi? Why did I want her to say hi?

Feeling overwhelmed i ran out of the cafeteria with only one class left it was bordering the end of the school day so I carefully left early to get a head start on dad coming home.
I cut threw the woods it now being day-light meant I could see all of the paths that were so desperately blacked out last night maybe that girl didn't come out of nowhere

I thought when the bushes once again began to shake and russl around just than the same girl from last night appeared "HI" she yelled
"Hello..." I said softly
"Wow your sure quite during the day still need help finding home?"
"No I'm okay thank you I said again in a soft voice

by this time I could tell that she could tell I was very shy so she yelled more whats with this girl was she raised by wolves I couldn't help but think
"COME ON IT DOESN'T MATTER ILL STILL WALK YOU"

with the biggest smile
So many questions were asked on that walk.
Upon returning home this mystery girl finally introduced herself as Verona, I said well Verona it was nice seeing you again

I guess I'll see you around but when I looked to see her reaction as I had been looking at the ground most of our conversation she was gone.. huh oh well i blindly overlooked the situation.