Taste of Lies • Jensoo / Chaennie

Six

The cookies were abandoned above the coffee table as the two started their sensual connection on the same couch. Jennie can feel the warmth of both their bodies through their heavy breathing, and she's quite sure her face is blushing right now. It continues when Rosie got up and sat on Jennie's lap, kneeling on the soft couch, locking Jennie in place with both her thighs. Jennie stared massaging those thighs until it went underneath the girl's top. Rosie pulled from the kiss and quickly removed her thick knitted shirt, she then again went back to kissing Jennie passionately.

"I- I can't" Rosie was about to pull the other girl's shirt up when it suddenly held her wrist to stop her. Jennie averted her gaze and chewed her inner lip nervously "I'm sorry, I feel bad"

The girl on top heaved a sign and sat beside her again, still waiting for Jennie's excuse "I feel bad because Jisoo will be the one on my mind while doing it with you" she looked at Rosé cautiously "And I can't do that most especially to you"

Rosie nodded, Jennie was soft, at least she's considering a genuine relationship with her instead of being just a fuck buddy "Okay," she smiled softly and caressed Jennie's cheek "I understand, Jen" she stood up and grabbed her shirt to wear it again.

She was fixing herself when Jennie stood up to help her out "No pressure, I'll be waiting for the day when you'll want me instead" she chuckled while Jennie just smiled apologetically. She walked the girl to the door and opened it for her before grabbing her hand.

"Rosie," the girl turned around and met her gaze, she squeezed her hand and smiled "thanks"

Rosie shook her head "Anytime Jen" she leaned forward and gave her a peck on the cheek before whispering "How about being honest with her?" she pulled away and winked before leaving.

Jennie heaved a sign, of course she have thought about that a million times already. But she just can't afford to lose Jisoo. She can't afford to lose the only person she's been loving and breathing with for the past years.

My human.

She knew that once the girl finds out about her secret obsession, it's all over for her. All she can do is express how she loved Jisoo through acting more than like a real life partner could do.

• • •

[Jennie]
"I went home already, I'm tired"

Jennie tapped the send button before dropping herself on her bed. Just when she thought she's done crying, her tears went flowing again as her mind kept repeating the scene on the club earlier.

Jisoo, with a man.

She wanted it to stop. She wanted the pain to stop. She gripped the hem of her shirt and bit her trembling lip, trying to stop herself from feeling. But it was useless. Her chest won't stop hurting.

When the morning came, she felt not just the weight of her own head but also the weight of another human above her. Jisoo was sleeping soundly, embracing her waist tightly. She gasp a little when she saw that her best friend was fully naked "What the hell?" she would whisper.

The latter didn't even move nor showed a little sign that she was awake, maybe too drunk from yesterday. She quietly observed the girl's feature and saw the hickeys around Jisoo's jaw and neck, the exact same spot where the guy have sucked and nibbled her last night.

She felt a sudden ache in her head, as well as her chest. It was a hard, hurtful pinch that led her to be mad by the girl on top of her. She was massaging her own temple while staring at her bestfriend when it suddenly moved.

Jisoo was finally awake, and the first thing she said when she saw Jennie was "I've missed you". She wrapped her arms around Jennie's neck and pulled her closer "Don't ever leave me again like that" her voice hoarse but soft.

Jennie heaved a sign, she was still shaking, she was angry but mostly confused, she can't do anything about her feelings.

"Jennie," the girl loosened her embrace and looked at her intently in the eyes "I love you" she pecked the girl's lips before embracing her again tightly, burying her head on Jennie's neck.

Jennie's breathing stopped, she was craving to hear those words from Jisoo ever since the last time they kissed. They usually tell that to each other a lot before but since the first kiss, it all changed for Jennie. She have seen Jisoo romantically and not just a friend anymore.

Reality hit her, Jisoo was with a guy last night, and this I love you was just like the other ones before that kiss.

I was the loser,

Jennie heaved a sign, it was enough for her. Being able to hear Jisoo's I love you's and being able to feel her body. This is enough. Title would only pull the girl away from her. And she can't take that. She embraced the girl back and closed her eyes, kissing the top of Jisoo's top of the head.

and I accept my defeat.

• • •

"So yeah, that's what happened" Jennie signed as she rolled to the bed. She decided to call Rosie by evening after folding and hanging all of her and Jisoo's clothes, the girls was still not home yet, what's with Sehun anyway? Did she mean it when she said she's really in love with him? What does the guy have that the others don't have?

What does he have that I don't have?

She grabbed a pillow and buried her face, of course she's a woman. "So... are you, like, ready to let go of her now?" Rosie's words were careful, she doesn't want to mingle in other's business as much as possible, but they're in that space anyway.

"I've been trying to reach for her Rosie" her voice muffled as the pillow remained on her face "Been trying to make her fall in love with me for years"

"Sorry what? I can't hear you clearly" the girl on the other line transferred the phone on the other ear.

The sheets rustled when Jennie shifted and threw the pillow on her side "I said I tried," releasing a loud sign "but it won't work, my love language won't work on her. She won't fall in love with me no matter what"

"How can you say that?" she paused when Rosie asked the question. She just felt more pathetic just by thinking about it.

"Rosie," she felt a pinch on her chest again, the familiar feeling that she has been enduring since she was eighteen. She stared at the ceiling as her eyes started forming a mass of liquid.

"She kept playing around with other people even after making love with me. I mean—" she sniffed and wiped her cheek "even after a sex with me. Yeah, I think that's the right term"

Rosie remained silent, she could hear the struggle in each word, even she herself can't imagine the pain that Jennie has been feeling for a long time now. She would be willing to help the girl but how?

Jennie chuckled bitterly "I'm pathetic right? I never slept with anyone without thinking of her"

The girl on the other line scoffed "That explains earlier. But Jen, nothing's wrong with being devoted. Unless it's a one sided thing then... a relationship would never work"

She sniffed again and nodded. Jisoo is already in love with someone else, she have tried for years but it only took two months for this guy to get Jisoo.

"How about this," she heard the willingness in Rosie's high pitched voice "move in with me."

"What?"

"You heard me. Move in with me Jen. Let's pretend we're in love for a while, see if you will be able to move on from Jisoo"

She bit her lower lip and looked down, thinking deeply about Rosie's proposal.

Kim Jisoo, will you crave for my warmth too?