Still fuckers

Ouch you fucker

• Jack •

'I've never seen so many different types of car seat, don't they all do the same thing?' There had to be at-least 40 different designs on the shelves in front of us as we wondered through the store, trying to be as low-key as we could.

'I have no idea what the difference is between this and this' Sage noted as she held two completely different car seats up, one in each arm. I furrowed my eyebrows for a moment before I spoke again.

'Ones green and ones blue?' I shrugged and she huffed putting them down and continuing to look along the various aisles in the store. I followed closely behind, keeping my hand interlinked with Sage's much smaller one. It appeared she had given up on car seats and had diverted her attention to the clothes.

'Sage, babe, if we buy anymore baby clothes we'll be able to open up our own shop' I groaned as she began rummaging through the racks, throwing different pieces into the trolley as she went.

'But look at how cute it is' she pouted at me and made those puppy dog eyes again as she held up a tiny England baby grow with a matching hat and bib.
I gave in and watched with a smile as she threw it in along with the other bits she had chosen.

We spent easily another hour trying to work out which pram we wanted to go, the right cot and co-sleeping unit, whatever the hell that means before going back to the car seats and finally finding the right one with a little guidance from one of the floor staff. I began piling all of the things into the car when I noticed how quiet Sage had become.
Closing the boot of the car I brought her in for a hug as I leant against the back of the car.

'What's up gorgeous?' I asked as I brought her away from me to look at her now teary eyes. She sniffled a little before she was ready to speak.

'What if I'm shit at this whole motherhood thing'
I couldn't quite believe what I was hearing, it had never really been a thought in my mind that she would be feeling this kind of anxiety. I stayed silent for a moment, resting my head on top of hers as I kept her embraced in my arms.

'We do it together, that's the whole point' I smiled down at her and she nodded, wiping the tears away from her eyes and climbing into the car.

•••

'Okay so if this goes there then this must go...' I sat on the bed with a smirk as I watched Sage attempt to work out how the babies new car seat works.
She pressed the red button on the side of it causing the whole thing to snap up and catch her finger. She jerked away from the contraption quickly and shook her finger whilst screaming.

'Ouch you fucker' she cussed and I couldn't help but laugh as she frowned at the now collapsed car seat.

'I don't think your aloud to do that when there's a baby in it' I laughed pressing a kiss to her head and standing up, bringing the car seat back into its normal position and putting it away in its box.

'We need to decorate the baby room you know' she pointed out and I rolled my eyes laying back on the bed as Sage crawled on top of me, resting her head on my chest.

'Have you decided what room you wanna chose?' I asked and she nodded standing up and dragging me into the room next door. She stood in the big open space, spreading her arms out wide and grinning at me, I chuckled to myself and walked over, wrapping my arms around her waist from behind and swaying up from side to side around the room.

'Don't forget my scan later' she said quietly and I hummed in response. I was so excited to go and finally get to see our baby and hear it's little heart beat.

We spent the rest of our time before the scan relaxing on the sofa, Sage has insisted on making me watch homes under the hammer and I'd never wanted to rip my hair out more in my life. Today was my last day off before I go back to training ready for the match next Saturday and as much as I didn't want to leave Sage, Megan would be coming over most days and bringing Teddy with her to keep Sage company and that reassured me a lot. I knew I was going to be protective over Sage throughout the pregnancy, I'm protective of her anyway but the way I felt so early on was shocking to me.

'Are you ready to go?' Sage's gentle voice snapped me out of my thoughts and I nodded at her standing up and heading to the car.

'Are you nervous?' I asked, Sage had been quiet for a while, tapping her fingers on her legs and looking around alot more than usual. She directed her attention to me and nodded slightly.

'What if they find something bad?' She asked with a concerned look on her face.
I reached over and put my hand on her thigh, resting it there as she placed her smaller one over the top.

'Then we face it together, like we always do' she gave me a small smile and nodded, resting her head against the window and intertwining our fingers as I drove to the hospital.
We pulled up in the car park and I looked in the direction of the entrance seeing a crowd of news reporters huddled outside.

'For fuck sake, how did they know' I groaned and caught the attention of Sage who also looked over with a stressed look on her pale face.

'Come on' I ushered her out of the car and put my jacket over her trying to keep her protected from pictures, she was so insecure about herself at the moment anyway, the last thing she needed was a million and one photos being taken of her.

'Jack Jack is it twins again?!'

'Jack is she losing it again!?'

'Is she incapable?!'

I snapped my head up as I heard the last question. Stopping in my tracks I span around in the direction of the reporter who had shouted the insensitive question.

'What the fuck did you just say to me?' I spat and the man took a few steps back, startled by my appearance in front of him.

'I um, I'm sorry mate' he held his hands up in defence but it was too late, I'd seen red and Sage's begs for me to stop were falling on deaf ears.

I shoved him back and watched on as he stumbled back losing his balance and falling to the floor. He huffed as he landed on the hard concrete and I took another step closer to him.

'Show up anywhere near me again, and you'll be in the fucking ground, not just on it' I threatened and he stood up, rushing away from the now silent crowd.
I looked around me, seeing the way everybody now looked at me, shocked and stunned. Spinning around I saw Sage in the hospital, talking to the receptionist, she turned to look at me as I walked through the doors and quickly walked away from me.

'For fuck sake' I muttered under my breath.