I don't mean to hurt you but I can't love you infront of everyone

Why not me

Sheilas pov:

I sat there 

Only feelings running through my body are

Tiredness 

Abandonment 

Exhaustion 

Sadness 

And pure guilt 

I just sat there 

Watching the door 

Hoping that for some reason 

Any reason 

She'd walk back in

And hug me

And hold me 

And kiss me

And tell me it would all be ok 

But I knew that wouldn't happen 

I knew I'd sit in my self pity 

Feeling completely and utterly dead inside 

For being the stupid bitch that I am 

I never knew love could hurt this much 

That's probably because my whole life 

The love that was presented to me was all materialistic and fake 

But her 

Ziggy 

Ziggy berman 

The person I refused to acknowledge as the person I love 

She loved me 

She really did 

And I lost her 

And for what 

What? 

Fake love 

I don't give shit about that 

I lost everything for nothing 

How dumb could I be 

I didn't think 

I wasn't thinking

I should've thought why didn't I think 

I was snapped out of my trance when Bev dropped and shook my knee 

I looked up with an expression less look on my face 

I saw Annie standing behind her looking confused 

B: are you ok?

I stuck my thumb up 

B: I don't believe you 

I just got up walked to my bed and laid down 

Silent 

Annie just sighs

B: bev let's just go 

B: go without me I'll catch up

A: whatever I'll wait outside 

Beverley sits on my bed and puts her hand on mine 

B: Sheila I'm really worried about you 

I decided to just answer her just because I felt bad 

So I rolled over and looked at her 

S: don't worry about me b