I don't mean to hurt you but I can't love you infront of everyone

We couldve had it all

Sheilas POV:

I laid their frozen in time 

The tears where constantly falling out of my eyes 

My face was covered in fresh and dry tears 

I've never felt like this ever 

So confused 

So hurt 

So lonely 

So ashamed 

I'm so sick of myself 

This internal pain it feels like physical pain 

That's probably what you think 

But that isn't true 

No physical pain I've ever felt could compare to this

No pain could compare to this 

This was a unexplainable pain something I never thought I experience 

I miss her 

I love her 

I never wanted to admit it 

But 

I sunny valler Sheila 

Love 

Shadysider ziggy berman 

I've admitted it now 

But it's to late 

I try to pull my self together 

I try to stop crying 

But I just can't 

I lost everything 

It all hurts so much 

So There I am 

Laying under blankets on my side 

Clinging onto her flannel for dear life 

It's funny because less then a day ago I was the happiest girl alive 

And now 

Now 

Now it feels like time is moving ever so slowly around me 

And I'm stuck in the moment that broke me 

An it hurts more and more everytime it replays in my mind