Triangle of Three

Chapter 17

Steves POV***

She looked so beautiful sleeping in my arms. I can't believe this happened. I stroked her head and moved her hair behind her ear. Her head was on my chest and her hand was on my stomach. I didn't want this moment to end. I finally got her in my arms as mine, not just as a friend anymore. She stirred a little bit groaning in her sleep. I knew she was having a nightmare. I prepared myself for her to wake up screaming but she just wrapped her arm around my torso holding me tight. She relaxed and that was it. Was I helping keep her nightmares away? "I love you, Josie. One day I will marry you. I know it." I smiled down at her as I closed my eyes falling into a deep sleep. 

Josies POV***

I woke up in steves arms. He is absolutely adorable. I gave his chest a little kiss and I started to roll out of bed when he pulled me back into his strong arms. "Just where do you think you are going?" I looked up at him smiling. He had his eyes closed. He was seriously so cute. 

"I was going to get ready to go beat you at our run." 

He groaned pulling me tighter to him. "No, let's just stay in bed all day. We can watch movies and have Friday deliver food here for us."

"Steve, We can't lay here naked all day. It's not like we have our own house to just walking around naked."

He sat up and moved so he was hovering his top half over me "What if we had our own place?"

My eyes were big as the fucking moon. My mouth was on the floor. My hands flopped at my sides. I looked up at him searching for the joke or punch line. "You can't be serious we are not even dating.. we had sex one time.." 

He rolled off me looking sad. "Josie I've loved you for three years." I sat up looking at him. Could I envision a life with him? I never thought of anyone but Bucky in that way and here I am with his best friend considering the same? He reached over stroking my face "What are you thinking about.."

I let out a sigh "Honestly, I feel so amazing with you but I also feel like a hoe because you are Buckys best friend." 

His eyes got wide. He sat up with his arms resting on his bent knees. "Josie you are not a hoe. Let's get that straight. You have an amazing heart. It's one of the things I love about you." he hung his head and let out a breath before getting out of bed putting his boxers and jeans on.

 I felt my heartbreak "What are you doing?"

He had his back to me as he put his belt on. "Josie, I don't know what much to say when it comes to the topic of bucky but I know he would be happy you chose me instead of an evil god or a man bent on killing hydra soldiers as his life mission." he hung his head I felt like I was going to throw up I just wanted him to come back to bed "I want to be with you Josie. I don't want to be with anyone else." with that he left me in my room alone. what was I supposed to say to that? I have so much to think about. All I know is I do not want to live a life where he isn't in it and last night proved that. I can see a future with him. 

I can imagine having kids with him. Steve would be an amazing dad. He is literally husband material. shit. I need to make this up to him. He probably thinks we are just becoming fuck buddies. I need to do something to show him how much I want this. I really messed up I suck with emotions and getting it all out there on how I feel. I'll get with Wanda and Natasha to see if they have any ideas. First I need to see Tony and Zemo if they have answers to my questions yet. 

I walked into my closet and put on my Nike workout clothes. I tied my sneakers and put my hair into a high ponytail. I was still going for my run whether or not Steve was going to. I got to the kitchen and steve walked in. I smiled at him and he pinned me against the counter with my back to him. I was getting excited until he reached in front and grabbed an apple. He bit the apple into my ear and walked away. Gliding his hand across my ass. My god. I looked at his ass as he walked outside in his white t-shirt and grey sweats. He's going for a run too. 

I walked outside stretching while he put his headphones in flipping through his songs. Looks like we are not talking on this run. That's fine I'm going to run circles around him. I spun my ankles each and then started to run. I wasn't going to let him get to me. Even though nothing feels off and the sexual tension is very much still in the air again. I didn't see him at all while I was running. It was kind of peaceful. I didn't feel pressured or anything. I inhaled deep and let out a deep breath. I started to pick up the pace I wanted to finish strong. I was rounding the turn when I noticed he was literally right behind me. 

I smiled. Ok, pervy Steve I see you. I slowed down and turned to face him. He almost smashed into me. "Watcha doing Steven?" 

He looked down at me smiling "Just enjoying the view even if that view drives me crazy." He kissed my forehead and ran back into the compound. He isn't wrong. I led him on when I first met him before Bucky. Then after Bucky, I would run to him for comfort but sleep with Loki. I then try to actually act on feelings and I pretend to date Zemo so he falls back for me. God, it sounds so fucked up and all I've done is keep Steve around as a backup when Steve should have been treated 110 percent better. Damn, I really need to make this up to him. 

I ran back in grabbing water and heading up to the lab. The only one inside was Banner. "Hey, do you know when Tony will be in today?"

He looked up at me confused "He is overseas...Umm, he didn't tell you? He was following a lead on your powers with someone who popped up showing the same as you." I already knew who it was. 

"Did anyone go with him?"

"Yeah Zemo did, he was the one who found the variance of a power surge." my eyes went wide. The only person with that kind of power would be my mother. Who was supposed to be decapitated...in 1940.