Triangle of Three

Chapter 32

Josies POV***
We just sat down with our omelets I took my first bite when Bucky asked "soo how are you and Steve."

I almost spit out my food. I swallowed harshly looking up into his eyes. His cold, empty, eyes. "Bucky let's not pretend the whole compound didn't hear what happened all day yesterday and night.."

He nodded taking a bite and washing it down with whisky. I spoke again "since when have you become an alcoholic. It's all I ever see you do.."

He took another sip staring at me the whole time my stomach doing backflips? "I like the taste." He simply says it with a shrug.

"Well, when we were together you..."

He cut me off quickly standing abruptly "We're not together, Josie. Things change in three years. Like feelings." With that he grabbed the whole bottle instead and took another swig, walking off. I realized at that moment I really hurt him and that made me feel even worse. 

I ran after him "Bucky...Buck!" He turned to face me he looked like he was in so much pain. I wanted to grab him and hug him... I would be lying if I said I didn't love him, It's just I'm with steve I cant do this. 

He lowered his head blowing out a loud breath "I'm jealous. When I'm down, I get real down. When I'm high, I don't come down. I get angry, doll, believe me. I could love you just like him, maybe better." he looked out the window in the hall. He had his hands on his hips "You don't judge me. I have a lot of issues, Josie."

I couldn't even speak I just whispered "But I have issues too."

He looked at me. We were still six feet apart "So give them to me.. Talk to me like we used to."

"Of all our problems, it seems me being with steve is the biggest."

"But we have a kind of love that it takes to solve it." I was confused by his answer. Love. Does he even feel? He continues "Yeah, I got issues, but the biggest one is how bad I need you. Not the fact that you're with Steve, Jo." 

"You're saying this shit on purpose trying to get me to fall back into some type of game. You drink a lot and break.."

"Yeah I get mad and break things, I always end up making you feel bad to the point where you try to fix things like you are now."

"But you're perfect, Just a bad circuit."

He opens his mouth to say something and closes it right up. Then opens it again "I would take a bullet for you just to prove my love, but it turns out you're the one holding the gun." He shrugs looking out the window "We just need to take it day by day. I don't expect us to get back together after seeing you with Steve you are more in love with him than you were with us."

"Ouch... Talk about holding a gun, when you just shot me with words. Bucky you are my soulmate. I can't change that." With that, I turned and walked to the elevator. I got on and the doors halted opening back up from a metal hand. 

"Don't walk away from me when you are angry. I wasn't finished." the door closed and I went to speak and he kissed me. God, it was electric. I pushed him off me. 

"What the hell!" I touched my lips they tingled. It was all I needed to confirm I love him. But is that love worth losing Steve and a happy family?

He rubbed the back of his neck "I am sorry, I have thought of doing that since the day I laid eyes on you in the meeting room."

I slapped him as the doors open to a very confused Steve  "Josie, Bucky?"

I blew past him practically stomping to my room steve grabbed my arm "Baby, use your words." 

I looked up at him and back at Bucky "He kissed me."

Steve dropped my arm. He slowly turned to Bucky and I realized he was going to kill him. I stood in his way "Steve don't, it's just Bucky."

He let out a laugh, I genuinely feared for Bucky. "Fine." I moved to go back to my room and I heard a huge bang like an explosion?! I turned to see steve slammed Bucky into the elevator wall. I ran back but the doors closed and steve hit the break for the elevator. The doors were see-through all I could do is watch my past and current lovers fight. Bucky threw about two punches and stopped fighting him once steve fell to the ground. Bucky looked at steve and me, He immediately stopped fighting I knew he realized it wasn't right. Steve on the other hand gets up jumping him to the ground and starts pounding his face. I couldn't watch anymore. I pressed my hands to the doors and shattered them getting in and pulling steve off placing him in a hold shocking him to the ground. 

Bucky got up slowly "I am sorry.."

I let out a breath. Steve was still conscious just shocked enough to paralyze him. "I am marrying Steve. He asked me to marry him, I said yes." We just stared at each other. His steel-blue eyes piercing my hazel eyes. I could feel the heartbreak from him. I felt the great divide come between us and a tear fell down my eye. He went to wipe it but lowed his hand right away nodding and crawling out of the elevator. 

I sniffled wiping my tears dragging steve out of the elevator. I Bucky threw him over his shoulder and took him into his room. He grabbed my left hand "Congratulations. I hope you are happy." He searched my eyes and then pulled me into a hug whispering so only I could hear "I can see in your eyes you want me. If he breaks your heart as lovers do, just know that I'll be waiting here for you" He grazed his lips on my ear and walked out. Steve didn't see but at that moment it felt like I cheated. 

Just then Steve spoke "I am also sorry. I was a jerk. I am an asshole." 

I turned shocked watching him as he stretched out from the paralysis. "You have nothing to apologize for..."

He gave me a sad smile. "I do have to apologize. I am what's standing between you and Bucky. I am not blind Josie. I can basically see the sparks between you two. I know fate has deemed him your soulmate." He ran a hand through his hair "We might be having a baby but Bucky is your future. I have to deal with that." 

I looked at him shocked. He stood up to walk to the door in that moment I felt like my whole world was walking away from me. I stopped him holding him in an embrace. He squeezed me so tight. "Steve, please don't do this.." 

"If you want me I will stay and be by your side until the end. I meant what I said. I want to marry you. I want a family with you." 

"Never put my love out on the line for just anyone. Never said yes to the right guy. Never had trouble getting what I want until now, but when it comes to you, I don't ever feel good enough. Steve, you are too good for me.."

He cut me off "Josie, you can't be serious," He scanned my eyes and face for some type of clue. The only thing is I spoke the truth and he realized it as his eyes got wide "Josie, I love you...I do not feel worthy. I have no power to protect you. I have no power but to fight. I feel like I fail you every day." He hung his head. 

"Steve... Please, we both know that's ridiculous. You saved me from Hydra. You have been here from the start. If anything YOU are my soulmate now.  I arched my neck puckering my lips "Kiss me?"

He smirked staring into my eyes "I want to do more than kiss you, Future Mrs. Rodgers."