I'll always be right there

The honeymoon tour

Feb. 25, 2015- First show of the honeymoon tour.
"Fuck" I said.
"What's wrong?" Brian asked
"No, nothing. It's fine, everything is fine" I snapped. I wasn't trying to be a bitch. And especially not on this day. But the thought of not seeing Sean for a while killed me inside. I could feel the nerves pouring in on me like there was no tomorrow. "What if I fall on stage? What if I can't get the rap part right? WHAT IF I FORGET THE ENTIRE SONG?" All of these what if's shot into my head.
"ARIANA!!" Jones shouted.
"What?!" I said.
"... It's show time babe" jones said with a smirk. Just then, in that moment I knew everything would be ok. All my nerves washed away. I could just feel the positive vibes coming from the arena. My loves were what kept me going. In the last 3 seconds of the countdown, the crowd roared and on that very moment, I came out with a bang!
"See anybody could be good to you, you need a bad girl to blow your mind"
I sang with all my heart and my fans could see how happy I was. I walked off stage and changed into the love me harder outfit. As I approached the lift I stood there going over the verses of the song.
"Ariana you're going up" shouted ruff.
"Alright, let's do this" I said. As the lift started to rise I felt the board snap and in that moment I didn't know what was happening. All I could think of was "do not drop the motherfucking mic. Keep singing."
"Ariana stay still don't move" ruff shouted. Even though ruff told me to stay, I knew I needed to get my ass up onto that stage. I pulled myself onto the stage and kept singing. My heart was beating a million miles a minute but the important thing was I kept singing and made it to the stage. As I sang through the song I finished my performance and headed off the stage. My crew was so shocked to see me do what I did out there.
"Bad ass" said ruff. I laughed and hugged ruff. Once the entire show was done I was beyond exhausted. I headed to the bus and went straight to my room.
"Love you guys!" I said. I went to my bed and gave Sean a call.
"Hey baby! How was the show?" Said Sean.
"It was great although I almost died. Literally." I said with laughter.
"I'm not even gonna ask." Sean said laughing.
"Ok. Well I'll talk to you later. I'm so dead rn. I feel like I can barely stay awake. I love you and I'll see you soon" I said.
"Love you more baby, Sean said. Bye beautiful." After ariana ended the call, she quickly went to bed.