dsmp little space/ agre one shots :D

little eret / cg niki

i'm gonna use she/her pronouns for eret in this one shot to avoid confusion, but i will be using their other pronouns throughout the rest of the chapters!!

TW- regression denial, regression shame
stay safe lovelies <3

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There weren't many people on the smp that regressed. Actually, as far as Eret knew, no one did. Especially herself.
It was weird. An adult acting like a child? Come on, you really can't think that's normal, right?

That's how she's felt ever since she first learned about age regression.
But ever since she's been queen, or was queen, things have changed a little. She feels so lonely sitting alone all day in a giant, empty castle. Sure, there's occasional visitors, but it's not like many people on the server are huge fans of her. In fact, one of the only people that visit her hasn't come in months.
Niki. Niki Nihachu. One of Erets only remaining friends. Or, more so just acquaintances. Friendly acquaintances.

Eret just feels so deeply and utterly alone.
The thought of regression has been sitting at the back of her mind for a while now. Not that she would every actually do it. She still doesn't think it's right.

So, she pushes that thought away. Far away. So far, in fact, it feels like it's killing her. She doesn't know why it hurts so much, but it does.

So, as the thoughts roll in, she puts away all connections. She stores the pink bunny she still has from her childhood in the back of her closet. All the bottles and pacifiers from when she would babysit tubbo before her days as queen were stored in there too.

And doing that worked. The thoughts were dissipating, and the urges slowed.

That was, until, someone came knocking on her door. She wasn't expecting any guests, especially not at 8:30 at night. But she stood from her chair and made her way to the door anyways. This is the first guess she's gotten in months, why wouldn't she? She's lonely.

What she wasn't expecting was to see Niki standing under the archway in front of the castle, basket in hand.

See, Eret had forced in the thoughts that Niki hated her now that her monarchy fell, and that's why she wasn't visiting. I mean, there's no better reason, right? Why else would someone suddenly stop visiting you with no notice?

And as Eret stood in the doorway, looking at her supposed "ex best friend," Niki took it upon herself to welcome herself in. The only thing that snapped Eret out of her shock was the loud noise she recognized as the main door closing.

She looked up to see Niki staring at the, now mossy, stone flooring with a look of pure guilt on her face and a woven basket in hand.

Hesitantly, Eret took it upon herself to start the conversation first.
"Uh, hey Nik- uh, Nihachu." She only realized at that moment that she didn't feel worthy enough to use her actual name, just the one that everyone else on the server who didn't know her well called her.
But at the sound of Erets deep voice calling her by something she hasn't heard out of her best friend's mouth since before they got to be good friends, she realized how much she messed up. Niki raised her head to look Eret in the eyes, and her heart broke. Eret appeared to be on the verge of tears, obviously hurt and confused as to why Niki came now of all times. Before Eret could say another sentence, Niki finally spoke up.
"Hey Eret. I'm sorry for not visiting. It's been super busy at the bakery. Business has been so quick that I haven't been able to find the time to get away from it. I'm so, so sorry for not prioritizing you. I'm a shitty friend." Niki said, her voice breaking at the end.