Troye:
I woke up today and felt lost. I wake up feeling lost too often nowadays. I'm lost for words right now, I just checked my phone to find like 5 messages from Tyler again. It's so so frustrating knowing he loves me but at the same time every time I hear his smooth American accent I fall into a deep daydream.
"@tyleroakley - Hey Troye, I was just wondering if you wanna come round sometime this week. I heard you were in LA so I thought we could maybe go out sometime and catch up?"
@tyleroakley - "It's up to you, don't feel pressured into coming if you don't want to."
@tyleroakley - "It's just been a while and I'm missing you baby"
I dropped my phone and rubbed my eyes; I don't care... But I do care I guess. I don't want to hurt him because he's such a nice guy and he may or may not be in love with me. No I'm not telling anyone, I can't, it could potentially break the hearts of my fans, I could even be a disgrace to my family. Most of all it would definitely break Ty's.
Should I reply? Tyler is miles away and I feel as if I am confronting him eye to eye.
Ok I'm going to reply, the hell am I even going to say?
@troyesivan - "Hi Tyler, yeah sure I'd love to hang out sometime this week...
What else is there to say?
@troyesivan - "Hi Tyler, yeah sure I'd love to hang out sometime this week, I'm sorry I haven't spoken to you in so long, I've just been busy with songwriting and stuff lately. See you soon Tilly xx"
But the problem here is; those were lies. The kisses, the "I've been busy", all lies. Do I love him or don't i?
