Jealousy

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Your POV:

I wake up in the morning to Cordelia playing with a strand of my hair. I look down at her and smile "good morning" she smiles back "good morning" she rasps out. I pull her closer into me. She lays her arm across my chest and lays her head on her arm. I look into her eyes seemingly getting lost. Then a question pops into my head "Delia?" She hums "do you want kids of your own?" She breaks eye contact and begins playing with my hair again. "I do but I was unable conceive in my last marriage...I went to every doctor and tried magic, even voodoo magic but nothing seemed to work" she begins to tear up.

I frown "I'm sorry my love I didn't know" Cordelia wipes a few stray tears "it's okay I've accepted that I have a useless uterus" I sigh and hold her closer. She nuzzles into my embrace. "I would really love to be a mother though. The whole pregnancy and childbirth...even though you say it's scary" I giggle "it is" she giggles then sniffles "I wanted to be a mom my whole life...But now-" her body begins shaking as her sobs overtake her.

I comfort her as best as I can "shh baby it's okay I'm here. We will find a way. There has to be a way" I whisper the end to myself. After Cordelia is finished crying we get up and decide to take a shower.

After our shower we get dressed and head down to morning gathering. I sit and talk with the girls occasionally stealing glances at Delia. Cordelia is sitting near Myrtle immersed in conversation. After breakfast Delia heads up to her office to finish paperwork and I find myself sitting in the library trying to find something, anything that can help Cordelias and my situation.

After hours of searching my eyes begin to get heavy and my head is throbbing. I check my watch to see it's 5:30, it's about to be dinner time and I've missed lunch. With a sigh I get up and put all the books I was reading away. Then make my way to my bedroom. I lay down on the bed and close my eyes.

I must've drifted off because when I wake up there's a hand softly shaking my shoulder.
"Y/n, y/n honey wake up" it's Cordelia. My eyes snap open and I sit up abruptly. "Delia what's wrong?!" She shakes her head "I'm fine baby but it's about to be dinner time. Come on let's go" I stand up and stretch my muscles hearing my back pop in the process.

During dinner Cordelia and the girls are all in their own conversations. My mind however is running through the information I've read. Nothing. Nothing Cordelia said she hasn't tried. I sigh heavily and raise a fork full of food into my mouth. For the duration of dinner I'm lost in my thoughts. Sometimes joining into conversations upon hearing my name.

After dinner I sit on the couch. My head resting back against the top of the couch. My hands over my eyes blocking out the light. "Y/n." I slowly move one of my hands away from my eyes to see Leah. "Oh hey Leah" I scoot over making room for Leah to sit. She turns to me and rests her arm against the couch, her head in her hand. "What's on your mind?" I open my mouth to lie to her but she cuts me off. "And don't even lie to me I know you too well." I smile defeatedly

After explaining Cordelia and my situation Leah gives me some advice. Telling me she will help me look. But to also wait to have children with Cordelia. We shift the conversation into Leahs love life. She tells me she has a teensy tiny crush on Mallory. I smile widely and take her hands into mine then pull her into me so I can whisper in her ear. "Well I've heard that Mallory may or may not have the tiniest crush on you too." I pull away and watch how her eyes bug out. "Don't lie to me y/n!"

I giggle and shush her "I'm not I swear. If you want I can even help you make a move" Leah squeals and brings me into a bone crushing hug then kisses my head repeatedly "YES! Please" I laugh at her excitement making her roll her eyes "Don't tell anyone about it. Like at all." I pretend to zip my lips and throw away the key making Leah laugh.

After my conversation with Leah in the couch I make my way upstairs. I'm passing Myrtles room when I hear a voice. Cordelias voice to be exact. I keep walking until I hear my name. I stop and just listen. 'I know that Myrtle, but how am I supposed to feel.' Myrtles voice is quiet and I can't hear her. 'I guess your right but y/n is too young. I don't want to worry her' now my interest is peaked.
Worry me about what?
More muffled words until I hear footsteps approaching the door.

I panic and swiftly walk down the hall into our shared bedroom. A minute later Cordelia enters and smiles as she sees me laying on the bed scrolling through my socials. "Hey babe" I say sitting up, locking and throwing my phone on the nightstand. Cordelia smiles and kicks off her shoes before walking over to me. Cordelia stands between my legs. I wrap my arms around her waist and pull her close, nuzzling my face into her stomach.

She runs her fingers through my hair "I missed you" I mumble into her stomach. Cordelia giggles "that tickles" I smile and lay back making Cordelia fall on top of me. "Y/n!" I roll us over so I'm kneeling between her legs. I squeeze her sides making her squirm. I start tickling her making her scream my name laughing her beautiful laugh. "Y/n! Stoppppp" she yells as she thrashes around laughing. I stop and lay on top of her nuzzling my head in the side her neck. I place a soft kiss there "I love you." Cordelia runs her fingers through my hair scratching my scalp "I love you too, so much" I smile and bite her pulse point making her gasp.

I get up and make my way over to the bathroom. "Tease" Cordelia stands and follows me.
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-Nikki