love hate.

TWO: love of my life

It was quiet, too quiet. I wasn't thinking when i ended the call. I wish i hadn't.  

Cassey, the girl i almost hooked up with looked at me, "why did you stop?".

It was 2 months ago, when the love of my life almost died, while i was on Cassey's neck.

What i regretted the most was i was not there, i felt mad guilty for it but guess what. 

It was always been a thing for me being a jerk, that what makes Cleo fell for me at the first place. 

I don't know why i ended the call, maybe because i was too guilty to say that i was cheating on her.

I mean i'm seventeen, and i have needs. Why should i need to suppress it for another 3 month?  

Anyway, i needed the break when i accidently butt-dial Cleo, and i pressed speaker when i heard the scream i know damn well it was Cleo. 

I ended the call right away, because i thought she would come storming down our apartment, ruining everything, she's an angry ball.

"you need to leave right now! like now! Cleo is gonna beat me and if-if she saw you... ohh it's not gonna end without some of your ripped hair is in the floor." That's what i said at the time towards Cassey.

Everyone knew how Cleo is, she is amazingly angry. Which i loved, but i didn't know i could be the one she scared with her words. 

Back to 2 months ago.

"What the fuck Levi. at least commit a little if you wanna cheat on your crazy Wife",

 Cassey threw on her clothes carelessly.

I thought i lose my mind, i lose my mind, why did i even think of doing something like that. 

I could've just beat myself for a couple months, but no i decide that cheating on Cleo was the best choice.

I waited for her all night, literally all night. Until her mom, Bianca, called me using Cleo's phone.

As soon as i heard, the phone in my grip fell. I took my car keys and leave the door opened.

I did not care. Cleo is in the hospital, she needs me. 

On the way to the hospital, all I could think was the questions I had in mind is accident caused by me.

My heart fell down to my stomach, I felt to puke. 

What if she died, what if Cleo didn't make it.

I tight my grip to the steering wheel, like it was going to make it any faster than the speed limit I already pass.

As soon i saw the lobby i rushed out, asking for Cleo's whereabout.

The receptionist told me she was going to be in the OR for a while, and my hands went clammy.

I think i passed out, because when i woke up i saw Cleo's mom.

She told me, Cleo need a blood donor because she had lost a lot of blood from the accident. Her left knee ligament tear down, as i heard every injury she had i broke down to tears.

Feeling like a jerk, then I realized something Cleo's mom hadn't brought up.

She said, she was gone, my baby was gone. My child was gone.

I felt to die, i don't know how will Cleo handle this. I need to see her.

"Where is Cleo?" I said firm and steady.

" i don't want you seeing her again, now you had nothing connecting you to her anymore." 

Bianca hated me since the first day we told her the truth about Cleo pregnancy.