love hate.

THREE: loud and clear

Blood is gushing through his nostrils, which by the way made me chuckle a bit. The evil one.

Levi kind of blacked out, he kissed me, without consent. It was fucked up. Thinking i was about to tase him. 

I asked someone for help, cause i wasn't as strong as i used to be. My injury haven't healed a hundred percent. 

I left him with someone named- George. Yea he looked like a George.

As i continue my path out of school, I walk past someone i have never seen in school. Probably a new kid. 

He looks cute, curly brown hair, nice fit body, a little bit shorter than Levi- Which is good.

I smile. 

Walking back home, i thought that today wasn't as bad as yesterday. Maybe i just healed? 

Or did i start to move on? I sigh.

I didn't want to move on, at least not yet.

My energy is drained within second, i wanted to feel what i just felt a while ago.

He kissed me. And i did not pull back.

My heart start to beat a little faster, an adrenaline pump-I thought.

Not even a second later, i dazed out. 

Waking up in a hospital. 

Flashbacks started to hit me, when they made me wait for an hour to administrate me.

While i was bleeding internally. 

As i cried out for help, and no one is bothered to even check in on me. I thought that was it , this is where i'm going to die.

Leaving my cheating boyfriend traumatize for years.

Which now i wanted to do badly. 

Back to the hospital, i was bawling my eyes out, grunting because the pain was too much.

 Nurses by nurses walked past me, like my pain was nothing. I'm furious.

Until there was this new nurse, as i can see she was confused of where to go but she dressed as a nurse. She glanced at me, i noticed.

She tried to avoid me, but my pain was not comparable to the madness i felt.

When she walked past my bed, i hold my stomach with my right hand, sitting back straight, and yelled many cuss words while i pulled her hair.

She screamed in pain. 

I could feel her hair almost ripped, but it stays on because she walk towards me.

"Please i beg you let my hair go.." She cried, 

I didn't let her hair go, instead i pulled the back of her head while still gripping tight to her hair close to my face and said,

 "get me a fucking doctor or i'll literally ripped every single strand of your hair while you stood in front of this room begging for help," I looked deep inside those watery eyes.

She trembled, " B-but you don't have any bruises or bleed any-" 

Before she could even finished i was raging, i pulled her hair further and further away from the owners.

"Give me a doctor or this- this will be gone," Pointing my eyes at her hair.

"y-yes ma'am, can you- let go", she held her tears in.