I practically ran home mainly to get as far away from that nerd Ashton as I could. I didn't care about math or science or whatever he was "teaching" me. I put my headphones in my ears and blasted sex by the 1975 and slumped down on the couch, my mom wasn't home, she never was. I didn't mind much though, I used to take boys home after school a lot and you know. I stopped doing that recently, I guess I found a new set of morals. I prefer being alone now. mainly because no one really wants to be around me, except luke and emma. sometimes. it's been colder than usual lately, so I went upstairs to my room and pulled a thick sweater over my head. I ran back downstairs and started an episode of gossip girl and grabbed a bag of chips.
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I couldn't seem to get up the next morning. I just wanted to lay in bed all day. I just wanted the day to fade away. and that's exactly what it did. I told my mom I was sick so I didn't go to school. I stayed in bed all day, I didn't eat, I didn't sleep, I just laid there. and I'm not even sure why. I just didn't feel like doing anything. the day turned into night and I felt much more alive.
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oops that was such a filler lol but the second paragraph was literally my day today I kinda stayed in bed on tumblr all day :( I don't feel sick I just feel empty
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lost ↠ Ashton Irwin
Fanfictionas the tears streamed down my face I knew he was gone for good and I'll have to live with myself knowing it was my fault he's gone [POTENTIALLY TRIGGERING IDK]
