Save Me From Myself

Chapter 4

Jasper and I walked into biology. We sat down right net to each other. I grabbed my notebook and a pencil before placing my bag under my desk. I opened it to the back and started doodling. People kept piling in. After about ten to fifteen minutes, the bell rang and class started.
Our teacher, Mrs.Mackson, stood up and started passing out papers. All I know is I didn't understand this stuff. As she came around to my desk, she stopped.
"Headphones out Alex. You know the rules." She pointed to the rule sign we had at the front of the class room. I rolled my eyes and pulled out my headphones, turning off the music.
"Thank you." She smiled and walked away.
Dustin ran into the classroom, drenched in something that smelled nasty. I tried not to laugh. Jasper got up, shocked, and walked towards him.
"You okay?" She asked looking up at him. I smiled knowing that stuff covering Dustin was all me.
"Yeah." He sighed. "But I've got a nerve to pick with your friend over here." He walked towards me.
"What? Do you really think I did this? Why would I do that?" I smiled slyly. I raised an eyebrow at him waiting for his response.
He looked towards Jasper. "Do you see what she's trying to do?!" He shouted. "She doesn't want you to be with me because of what I did to her!" His shout made Jasper jump a little. She was a shy person when it came to stuff like this.
I got up a walked over to him until he backed against the wall. The stench was horrible.
"Come on Dustin. What are you gonna do to her. Are you gonna do the same thing you did to me?" I asked in one of those girly stupid voices. "Cause you know what? You lay a hand on her, you think about hurting her in anyway possible. You're going to be in a world of hurt. Do you understand me?" I looked him dead in the eyes. What he did to me was horrible and it hurt so much. I thought he loved me but he used me. That day I was about to commit suicide, was the day I found out he had used me for his own pleasure.

*flashback*
"Hey Alex I need to talk to you." I heard Jace call out to me.
"What's up?" I asked her biting my lip.
It's Dustin. I'm so sorry Alex." She looked like she didn't want to tell me this. She pulled out her phone and showed me her conversation with Dustin.
Jace: Hey. How are you and Alex doings??? (;
Dustin: idk man. I don't think I like her anymore. Besides I was lying about loving her. She was just pretty and I wanted to get some of that before anyone else did.
My heart shattered. My eyes watered. Why would he do this. Did he really even love me. Tears slid down my face.
"Alex?" Jace wrapped her arms around me. "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry."
He doesn't love me. I was loving him with all my heart. Now he just shattered it.

*end of flashback*

"Alex!" Jasper yelled. I snapped out of my daze. I looked around and saw my hands grabbing Dustins shirt collar and pushing him farther against the wall. He was shaking. Good. He doesn't deserve Jasper. He took something from me that I could never get back and then went on to tell the whole school about it. Scars on my wrist, he caused those. The bruises when I was dating him, caused by him. I always said I got hurt in P.E., but Jace knew otherwise. I was blinded by how much I really liked him.. This wasn't going to happen to Jasper.
"You took one thing from me that I could never get back." I whispered to him angrily. Tears threatened my eyes. "I will not let you hurt me physically or mentally again. I will not let you hurt Jasper the way you hurt me." I pushed him farther against the wall. "You will leave this class now and leave me a Jasper alone." I pushed him against the wall and walked away wiping my eyes. The class was in shock. Mrs. Mackson didn't send me to the office. She told me to sit down and carry on with my day.

After school I went home. No one was there. Dad was at his girlfriends house and Mom was probably at work or shopping for food. I went into the bathroom and grabbed my razor blade. I turned them in my fingers multiple times. I laid the blade on my wrist and cut. After a few, I dropped the, in the toilet and flushed them. I will not do this anymore. He will not do this to me anymore.