Second Chance [BinHwan]{✔}

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Hello there. Lemme introduce myself. I'm Kim Hanbin. I'm 17 years old. Hobbies let's say I like singing and song writing but not everyone is lucky to pursue the passion.

My parents are actually very rich. They have a lot of money but what they don't have is time for me. My own mother was never with me since I was 5. She is always busy with her work. You can say both of them are busy making money.

Here I am lying on the hospital bed alone. Oh did I mention this isn't my first time here. This is actually the third time. I am diagnosed with cancer. They said my case is rare. Honestly I don't care anymore. Last time I mean second time they said I am fit and fine. Yoona noona also said I don't have to come here again. Yoona noona is actually the nurse here who has been taking care of me since I came here first time.

I am not a person who opens up easily but that didn't stop Yoona noona and Jiwon hyung. Dr.Kim aka Jiwon hyung is one of the best doctor all over Korea. Well my parents assigned him. He is well let's say very interesting. He is very chatty and caring. I don't know if that's how he treats all his patients or not.

Since day one hyung was too caring. He sometimes used to stay here with me at night. When I asked him he said because I was young and I refused to open up to him.

I still remember how he was crying beside me. He thought I was asleep. He was mumbling a lot which I didn't catch but his last line was 'I won't let you die baby not under my care.' I didn't ask him anything about that night. But why would he care so much when not even my own parents don't care. Also he never calls me baby. But I let it slip.

Coming back to my current situation I have been feeling very weak. I just don't feel like eating, always feeling sleepy. I don't know if I will survive this time. All this time my only strength was Kim Jinhwan. You might know him. When I was 10 Yoona noona introduced me to iKON. It has 5 members. My bias is Jinhwan. His voice is angelic. His smile makes me smile.

"Hanbin time to eat something " noona said and took a seat beside me. I told her I didn't feel like eating but she still feed me a little.

After I took my medicines I saw hyung coming. He was looking different. This is not the hyung I know. He looked stressed out. I am a good observer honestly. He then asked noona to leave. He sat beside me.

I asked him if everything was fine. He just said it's nothing but he can't lie to me. I asked him again. This time he just stared at me. I could tell something is serious. And probably related to me.

"Hyung it's ok. Tell me. Recently I have been feeling very weak not myself. " I wanted to know the truth.

He opened his mouth but nothing came out. His eyes were teary. I knew his answer. I was ready for it.

"Hyung I'm dying right?" I asked him. I knew the answer. He looked down and started saying "I am so sorry Binnie. I tried. I am still trying. The report said it's the last stage baby. I *sobbing* couldn't give you the future you wanted."

I hugged him and said it's fine. I have seen him fighting. If it was not him I would have been gone by now.

Suddenly a nurse came running and she informed it's an emergency and he needed to go. He looked at me then went away. I wonder what happened. After a while I fell asleep.