Not as planned 1 - Katsuki Bakugo

Chapter 92

Summary

Katsuki and group try to comfort Izuku

Katsuki and the others made their way up to Izuku's room. The omega knocked on the door but he didn't get an answer immediately. He tried to open it, but it was locked.

"Deku? It's me, can you open the door please?" he called out.

"Go away!" Deku growled from the inside.

"No, c'mon, please! I need to talk to you! Ochako, Mina and Eijiro are here too!"

"Deku, please let us in!" Ochako called out to him.

"I don't want to talk! There is nothing to talk about!"

"Bullshit! There is so much to talk about! We all saw things that we would like to forget. Don't be as stupid as I was back when I was kidnapped. I didn't want to talk to no one and you know where that brought us!"

"But I don't want to!"

Some explosions cracked in Katsuki's hands. "Hey, what are you doing? If he doesn't want to talk, we shouldn't force him" Mina tried to reason.

"DEKU OPEN THIS FUCKING DOOR OR I'LL BLAST IT OPEN! WE'RE GOING TO TALK RIGHT NOW! YOU STUPID NERD!"

After a few seconds, they could hear rustling on the inside and Izuku opened the door, he didn't look so good. He had dark circles under his eyes. He had clearly cried. "What the fuck do you want?"

"We want to talk! I ain't sitting downstairs while you suffer in here. I know talking to someone is fucking hard but I don't want you to stuff it all up inside of you. You don't need to fucking talk if you don't want to, we just wanna be with you. If you want to yell at me, go for it, but I ain't leaving you." Katsuki looked him deep into the eyes.

Deku eventually sighed. He opened the door and let them in. He walked back to his bed and sat down on it. Katsuki and Ochako sat left and right from him, Mina on his chair and Eijiro leaned against the desk.

"So, what now?" Izuku mumbled.

Katsuki looked at him. "What ever you feel comfortable with. Talking, yelling, not saying anything, cuddling, what ever you need." Katsuki told him. "But for the start, how are you feeling?"

Izuku shrugged. "Everything's fine" he murmured.

"Okay, I said whatever you feel comfortable with, but don't give me that bullshit, okay? Please don't lie! I was honest to you too, back then!

"What do you think? I feel FUCKING AWFUL!" He growled. His scent got stronger. Just it wasn't his scent alone any longer.

Katsuki could smell the distinct scent of Savage all over Deku, he now smelled like black currant, amber and peony. It mixed with his musky pine scent and it made Katsuki's nose itch. He didn't like it one bit. He could see the desperate look on Izuku's face.

"We're here for you, you can talk about everything" Ochako told him, she tried to calm him down, she leaned against him and slightly rubbed her head on his shoulder. She tried to cover the foreign scent.

They sat there in silence but eventually Katsuki could hear him gulp, before it broke out of him. "I almost killed Shigaraki" he murmured. "And this won't go out of my head. It's even more prominent than the fact that I am mated to this bitch! Her scent infests my room and I feel like I'm getting sick of it! I don't know what to do now, my whole body is itching from the poison! I feel ... I feel ... I don't-! I can't stand myself! I almost killed someone! And I-I was clear for a moment while punching in Shigaraki's face. B-but I WANTED to kill him! I-I had the chance to stop, but CHOSE not to! I'm so sick of myself! I could hear this bitch whisper in my ear, that he deserved it, and ... I literally did nothing to stop her. As soon as her teeth dug into my skin ... as soon as she ... mated me" he spat the word out as if it was something poisonous "I knew I couldn't harm her anymore!"

His breathing got heavier and tears welled up in his eyes. "She did this to make sure she would get out of there unharmed. I fucking crave that bitch! I hate her, but I still want her somewhere near me! I'm disgusted by that thought but still. I was about run to the police station and get her out of there. The fucking bite is itching like hell!" He pulled his shirt down and they could see long scratches around the bite. He had scratched himself bloody to get the itching away, but it obviously didn't do anything.

"I'm so fucking sorry, that this shit happened to you! I saw her biting you and I couldn't do shit about it. I wanted to rip her to pieces. I feel so bad for not protecting you." Katsuki mumbled. He wrapped his arm around Izuku he rubbed over him, also covering him in his scent.

Izuku scoffed. "Not protecting me? You literally jumped in front of me and got a metal beam through your body! You almost died for me!" His voice was shaky. He leaned around and grabbed Katsuki's face, he pressed his forehead against the omegas. "Don't you ever do that again! I can't stand the thought losing you! Or any of you! Please don't you ever do that to me, please!"

"I can't promise that, if I see you in danger, I will always be there to help you!" wrapped his arms around Izuku's neck.

"Even if I'm a fucking monster that has no control over himself?" Sobs broke out of him.

Katsuki fingers carefully stroke through his wild, green looks. "Hey, everything will be okay, Deku, you're not a monster! You could never seriously intent to kill someone. You weren't you today. And Kairi stopped you from killing someone. And Hitoshi and Ochako too" Katsuki mumbled.

"Yes, we're always here for you" Ochako hugged him too, she laid her head on his back. "How about we lay down on the bed and cuddle? You seem to need it" she suggested.

"S-sure" Izuku answered and lay back in the bed. It wasn't really cozy, Izuku didn't have a nest, obviously, or many pillows in general, but it would do. Ochako laid on his right side, while Katsuki was on his left side. But he quickly placed himself on top of Izuku when Mina announced that she wanted to cuddle too. Katsuki released as much calming pheromones as possible.

Eijiro didn't join the cuddle pile, he sat down on the chair and watched them. The bed was a tight fit with two alphas so he stayed out of it. Izuku had grown a lot and he was now bigger than him. But he was fine with Mina and Katsuki cuddling with him. Usually his inner alpha would growl at the mere thought, but not now ... He knew that his friend was hurting. At least he tried to convince himself that everything was okay.

All three omegas made sure to rub their scents all over Izuku, they drenched him in their scents. "You'll be alright, Deku, everything is going to be alright!" Ochako murmured in his ear.

"Yes, she's right" Mina agreed. "It might seem a bit dark at the moment, but you will fight your way through this! I am sure there will be a way to remove the bite mark and with therapy you can overcome the whole situation with Shigaraki too" she encouraged him, while hugging his arm tighter.

Katsuki lifted his head from Izuku's chest and he leaned over him. "Yes, they're right! Deku, remember you're the Deku, who always does his best! You will overcome this, and you will be stronger than ever before!" He gave him a smile.

Deku returned it. "Thank you!" he looked up to Katsuki.

Eijiro knew that he should say something. His friend needed his support! What was fucking wrong with him? He hated his alpha instincts so much. They still saw Izuku as a rival and this blocked him! He saw that Izuku suffered and yet he couldn't bring himself to support him! He suppressed a growl when he saw, how Izuku and Katsuki looked at each other. He bit his lip and he hoped that his scent wouldn't give him away, he actively tried to suppress it.

He clenched his fist and bit on his bottom lip harder. His raging feelings for Katsuki were still in the way. He had tried to hold them back but it was for naught. He closed his eyes and concentrated on his inner alpha. He told him to shut up, his feelings didn't matter at the moment. Izuku was the one who was hurting.

He opened his eyes, Katsuki was now on Izuku's chest again, but his hands were to the sides of Izuku's head, playing with his hair. He had to say something ...

"They're right, Izuku. You will be okay one day" he knew it sounded a bit forced. He felt so out of place at the moment, it was terrible.

Izuku looked over to him. "Thank you" he answered. Eijiro forced a smile and nodded. Yeah, he had to swallow his feelings for the sake of his friend. It was hard, but if he couldn't even help a friend in need because of his fucking jealousy, then what kind of a hero was he? He could do it, he had to!