Not as planned 1 - Katsuki Bakugo

Chapter 93

Summary

A very important talk between Eijiro and Katsuki.

They were together like that for a couple of hours, Izuku eventually fell asleep. Shortly after that, the omegas got up, Ochako pulled a blanket over Deku, she made sure to thoroughly scent it. After that, the four of them left the room.

Mina and Ochako left to go to their dorms while Katsuki and Eijiro walked up to theirs. Eijiro was silent on the way. Katsuki had noticed, that his friend was unusually quiet, he assumed it was still the shock of the day.

But in front of Eijiro's room he stopped Katsuki as well. "C-can we talk?" Eijiro asked.

"Uh, sure!" Katsuki turned towards his friend. Eijiro opened the door to his room and Katsuki entered. He was cautious however. He had still Tenya's words in mind. Katsuki sat on Eijiro's chair, while the redhead walked over to his punching back.

"So, what do you want to talk about?" Katsuki asked. Eijiro stared at the bag in front of him. He didn't really know how to say it. He needed time to kill the protest of his inner alpha. He exhaled shakily.

"Kats ... I ..." his nails dug into the material of the punching bag. "Damn, I don't really know what to say ..." He let out a deep breath.

Katsuki watched Eijiro struggle. "Hey, just say it!" he told him.

Eijiro scoffed. "Okay, here goes nothing ... You know that I like you?" he started.

Katsuki gasped and he starred at Eijiro. He didn't expect this type of conversation. "Uh, y-yeah?"

"Well, I realized over the past weeks that I am a terrible, unmanly person. Because I am still fucking jealous, every time I see you around Izuku. This was during the summer camp and ... now too. The look you gave him. I was burning with jealousy."

Katsuki stared at him, mouth open, eyes wide. "I ..."

"You don't have to say anything! Listen ..." Eijiro walked over to the bed. He looked Katsuki in the eyes. "I see how much he means to you, and how much you mean to him. And I-I get it! You were interested in him from the very beginning! It was his scent that spoke to you the most. His scent, that made you go crazy. You were childhood friends, you always had this special connection" Eijiro stared through Katsuki into nothingness, he furrowed his brows.

Katsuki's stomach turned. He didn't like the way, this conversation was going. "What are you saying?"

Eijiro focused again. "You love him, and he clearly loves you. And now, more than anything, he needs you. And my jealous ass wants to stop it, because I want you too. But we both know that it doesn't work with the three of us together, at least not like this."

Katsuki gulped, he knew what was coming next. "So ... I will take the decision from you. Kats ... you should stay with Izuku. He deserves you more than I do. He needs you more than I. I want you, I really do! But, he's the one who really needs you. So, please, for the sake of all of us, the both of us should just stay friends. You tell him how you feel, you two will make a great couple."

In disbelieve, the omega stared at the alpha. "B-but I have feelings for you too! What am I supposed to do with them?"

"I'm sure, Izuku will find a way, to extinguish those feelings. Or they will go away with time, one of those two options. I truly believe that it is for the best, if we just stay friends."

Katsuki starred at the floor in front of him. He needed a few seconds to process all of this. "A-are you sure, that this is, what you want?" His voice was shaking a little.

"Yes, it is what I want." Katsuki heard that Eijiro had to hold himself back. He was close to tears, it didn't show on his face, but his voice was a traitor. "I want you to be happy with ... Izuku." He gulped heavily.

"T-then we ... just stay friends ... t-that means no more c-cuddles?"

"Yes ... no more cuddles. I-I don't want to do that any longer. I end the cuddle pack here. You can, of course, still cuddle with Mina but I don't want to be part of it."

Katsuki nodded. "Okay" he whispered. "Okay, if that's your wish" he said louder. He cleared his throat. "Uh, hm, I will go to my room for now. I need to ... think about stuff." He stood up awkwardly.

Eijiro nodded. "Yeah ... I think this is for the better ... At least for now."

The alpha stayed on the bed, while Katsuki left his room. He heard the neighboring door open and close. Tears started to well up in his eyes, and he pressed his knuckles against his mouth, while the liquid spilled over his cheeks. "Fuck" he mouthed. He bit his lower lip bloody with his sharp teeth. This was one of the hardest things he had to do so far. Harder than getting beaten to a pulp by Rappa or going feral.

He felt hollow all of a sudden. He just had killed all of his feelings and desires with that talk. He knew that there was no turning back any longer. He had made his mind up, Katsuki was out of reach for him now. This knowledge was weighing on him and it drowned him.

Eijiro lay back in his bed and buried his face in his pillow. It took him a while to calm down again.

He eventually exhaled and looked at the clock. It was one in the morning ... he rubbed over his face and sat up. He felt really empty and he still had to do something else that would hurt him even more.

For a while he just sat on the bed his hand was in his neck. But eventually he stood up and walked out of the room. Time to be a man.

He walked down to Izuku's dorm and knocked on the door. He knew that it was an ungodly hour, but he needed to try it, before his courage left him.

To his surprise, Izuku opened. "Hey ..." he murmured. It didn't look like he had slept recently. Fresh tear stains were on his face.

"Hey, again ... I need to talk to you."

"Yeah, I guessed that. Come in." Izuku let him in and they stood next to the closed door now. "So, what's the matter?"

Izuku looked Eijiro straight in the eye, green orbs met red orbs. He could see that the alpha had cried too.

Eijiro exhaled. "I just came to tell you that broke any romantic thing I had with Katsuki off. We're just back to friends now."

Izuku gasped, he tried to find clues that this was a lie, but it wasn't, Eijiro spoke the truth. "Why? I ... don't understand why you would do that?"

"You love him, I mean, so do I, but I realized that he loves you too. The way you look at each other ... No matter what I do, I could never change that. And you see ... I'd rather cut the ties now, than later when they are deeper."

"Eijiro ... I don't know ... what to say – I ..." Izuku stuttered.

"You don't have to say anything. I just came to tell you that. If you want to be with Katsuki, then you should do it. I will no longer be an obstacle." He was silent for a few seconds. "I have just one request. If you decide to enter a relationship, please don't do it in front of me, okay?"

Izuku nodded. "Y-yeah, o-okay."

During their whole conversation, they never broke eye contact, so Izuku knew that he spoke the truth. "That was all I had to say ... Good night then" quickly Eijiro left the room, he needed to get away from here. He ran down to the common room and walked straight to the showers.

He quickly undressed and entered one of the cabins, he opened the cold water tap and let it ran over his body. While he was under the cold water, more sobs broke out of him.