Not as planned 1.5 - Katsuki and Eijiro

Eijiro Kirishima: +4 Years (+ Izuku)

Summary

Eijiro's turbulent year. And the second half of Izuku's year.

TW: for Izuku's part: The horrors of War and Death.

When Eijiro came home, he stormed into his room and threw himself onto the bed. Mina and Tetsutetsu looked at each other, not knowing what they should do.

"Hey, Eijiro, do you want to talk about it?" Mina asked, following him.

"Yeah, man, what happened?"

Eijiro mumbled something in the pillow he hugged. "What? We don't understand a thing like that" Mina pouted.

Eijiro turned his head. "I got drunk, went over to Katsuki, kissed him, and tried to have sex with him." He repeated.

"Holy shit ... Are you serious?" Mina couldn't believe it.

"Yes, but luckily he stopped me before I could do anything. God, I don't even want to think about it, if I had gone through with that. How am I supposed to face him from now on? He says that it is okay, that nothing happened but ... I don't know, I feel so bad!"

"That's the really hard stuff" Tetsutetsu commented. "And it's gonna be awkward."

"You are not helping!" Mina hissed. "Do you want us to cuddle you?"

"... yes please" he murmured.

Mina and Tetsutetsu lay down next to him, it was a bit strange for Tetsutetsu, but when his bro needed him, he would be there for him. That's what bros did after all.

The cuddling helped a little but Eijiro didn't dare to meet up with Katsuki after that. The awkwardness was too big. But he sometimes met Katsuki on the streets, but since the blonde was always accompanied by Hiroto, Eijiro got never the courage to speak to him.

He felt so fucking guilty. He imagined what would have happened if Katsuki was the same as before when he still had feelings for Eijiro ... what would have happened if they had sex that night? Or what if Katsuki hadn't been strong enough to stop him?

His mind spiraled down on those thoughts and it started to break him. He went back to his therapist, that he hadn't seen in years, and thought he wouldn't need again.

The therapist tried to calm his mind about it. But it was really bad this time.

He contacted Hitomi and told her what happened. She tried to console him, but it didn't fully work. She apologized to him for causing so much trouble, and Eijiro shook his head violently. Why did she apologize?

"No, it's not your fault, I got drunk and went to him." He mumbled.

"But only because I left ..."

"Still, it's not your fault. I should handle this better ..."

"Maybe you should go out and see someone? Not for a relationship, if you're not ready for that yet, but just to have some fun?" She suggested.

"W-what?"

"Yeah, try yourself out. Maybe this will bring your thoughts away from me and Katsuki?"

"Y-you would really be okay with that?"

"I mean, I'm sitting on the other side of the planet. As long as you don't tell me in detail what you do, I am not bothered by it."

"R-Right, maybe I should do that."

Eijiro messaged Izuku about his predicament, but he never got an answer.

He was sitting in his bed, criss-cross applesauce, and thought about it for a while. His sharp teeth pierced his bottom lip when he thought about the hands all over his body again. Cold night air, the grass surrounding him. Hot lips on his, all over his body ...