There's people out there that once knew that was full of life and joy but now..., they've lost all hope. I feel like everything is all my fault if perhaps they harm themselves or go further to death. I feel helpless, scared, and full of panic. Today I felt weak and vulnerable. I cried out my eyes in my P.E. class today stressing over what I can do to help my friends and fix things to what they use to be. I'm trying guys. I'm trying to make you all full of joy and no sorrow but you need to want to help yourselves as well. Please just let me in...., I don't wanna attend a funeral anytime soon. Especially if it's a friends. Just please...,Well get through this together I promise. I'm determined but I need your willing help to help you too. I love you all and if you guys hurt yourselves or commit the unspeakable I'd be a ship wreck thinking to myself "Damn it's my fault...,I couldn't do anything to make them stay". I'm sorry just need to write bout this. I can't stress it enough how much I love you all and I want you all to smile and only have the smallest percentage of sorrow in you. That's it for now; more to come.
