(This is an older post just decided to move it in this book, so don't be afraid. I'm well and healthy :3 )
I don't even know what I'm doing anymore. I no longer care about my health, or my happiness, or anything else. I don't even know why I'm still alive, here, breathing right now. I have no motivation to do anything anymore. The daily stress is killing me inside, and all the questions, all of the doubts, everything, it just makes me slowly slip into my old habits again.
Do you ever feel like you're losing you're losing your mind? Losing track of every single string inside of you broke. And it feels like being cracked open, hurts like hell, but you in the end of the day you feel numb, blank, and dead inside.
I'm faithless and tired of living through people's expectations. I can't be what they want me to be. I can't follow the system they want me to follow. it feels like everything I do it's just another mistake.
It breaks you, and it takes your sanity away, and it makes you feel smothered and out of your mind, running out of control. Everything I once thought I would be is falling apart. I can't take anymore.
I'm in a mess. I don't believe i'll ever be okay again. Sorrow is the only thing I've got left. I live every day of my life just because I have to. Not because I want to. I'm a waste of space. But I know there's others out there that I need to help.
