it feels like you can read my mind- gawsten

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"And dat is scaw and-and dat aww of dem!" Awsten smiled, holding the lion in his lap.

"Is his name scar because of the Disney movie?" Geoff watched as Awsten nodded.

"I wove Disney!" Awsten's smile grew bigger, Geoff chuckled and grabbed a bunny who's name was Pip.

"Do you like to color?" Geoff asked watching Awsten fidget with Scar.

"Mhm! I has sooo many colow book!" Awsten giggled, he was obviously so happy and that made Geoff happy.

"Aww, Okay! Do you wanna color in the living room while I make you dinner?" Geoff smiled, watching Awsten pout,

"I wann' candy instead." Geoff shook his head.

"You won't be getting any candy if you don't stop pouting." Geoff watched as he saw in Awsten's face that he realized that Geoff knew what he was doing. Geoff got up and watched as Awsten got up and grabbed a coloring book and some crayons.

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The two ate dinner together, Awsten babbling about something that Geoff had no idea about or what he was even saying as he ate the mac and cheese. Geoff loved doing this! It was his favorite thing to do.

"Mickey! Mickey! Mickey!" Awsten cheered as the two finished dinner.

"Mm are you sure Awsy? It's getting late, I think it's bedtime.." Geoff looked at the clock under the TV that read 10 PM.

"Nu-huh!" Awsten pouted, Geoff sighed and nodded.

"No pouts Awsty, let's go to bed. I'll tuck you in real nice, I'm good at it." Geoff smiled watching Awsten frown.

"No sweep wif me...?" Awsten tilted his head to the side, using his puppy dog eyes and it wasn't even on purpose. Geoff bit his bottom lip, Awsten probably really needed a cuddle. Geoff just didn't want him to feel uncomfortable.

"Okayyy fine." Geoff began walking to Awsten's room with Awsten cheering right behind him as he followed.

"Okay little boy, where is your pajama drawer-" Geoff went to ask, but was quickly cut off by Awsten.

"I can... can get my cwoves my-mysewf...." Awsten was too nervous about Geoff seeing one of his binders to even notice the nickname. He didn't want Geoff to find out, he was scared of it happening and what would happen if he did find out? It would be so bad. Awsten looked up and didn't notice Geoff had already left to got get changed. Awsten looked around in his drawers grabbing a big t-shirt and short shorts with fluffy socks. They kept his feet warm. He usually wore underwear to bed, but since Geoff was sleeping with him he was gonna wear shorts. Awsten got changed and sat on his bed hugging a stuffed animal.

Finally after a few minutes Awsten heard a knock at his door.

"Come in!" Awsten beamed as Geoff walked in. His shirt was off and Awsten had totally went blank. His arms were big and so were his hands and his chest was toned and Awsten couldn't believe someone could be so perfect. God! It's only the second day of knowing him and you're already drooling. Why are you so desperate? Awsten shook the thoughts away and sunk back into little space.

"I can go put a shirt on if you're uncomfortable, I just normally sleep like this." Geoff said as Awsten shook his head,

"No.. It okay." Geoff nodded and laid down, laying his arm out so Awsten could lay his head on it which he did. He was trying to figure out how to cuddle him without him feeling his boobs under his shirt.

"You wanna lay on my belly?" Geoff smiled, "everytime I took care of a little they loved laying on me. Didn't know if it was a thing." Awsten mentally groaned, he LOVED laying on peoples stomachs. He wanted too so bad! Awsten frowned, could he do something he wanted or get totally outed.

"I don't know.." Awsten started tearing up, God he hated this!

"Are you okay?" Geoff sat up and watched as Awsten started crying.

"No.." Awsten clutched onto a stuffed animal and sat up.

"What's wrong?" Geoff rubbed his back. Awsten sniffled before responding.

"Because I-I-I'm trans and-and I'm sorry for lying to yo-you and don't hurt me!" Awsten sobbed out. Geoff hugged him, just hugged him and he felt him give a really tight hug back.

"I'm really sorry for lying. I'm sorry. Im sorry." Awsten was shaking, really badly shaking. Geoff pulled away and grabbed onto Awsten's hands.

"Breathe with me, Aws." Geoff waited until Awsten's eyes locked with his to inhale deeply, Awsten following after and then exhaling. After a few tries, Awsten's breath became stable.

"Are you- Are you mad at me?" Awsten hiccuped. He felt Geoff rubbing his hands with his thumb.

"No... Of course not.. I'm so proud of you." Geoff's eyebrows furrowed, he felt so bad.

"Do you still wanna-wanna cuddle with me?" Awsten sniffled. This wasn't suppose to happen, he wasn't supposed to come out to Geoff he didn't want that.

"Yeah! I'd love too!" Geoff laid down, Awsten going on-top of him. He placed a hand on his back and gently rubbed it, making him fall asleep quickly.