My Secret Diary

Pool party

Day 169:
I'm thinking of inviting Ricky over to my pool party and also Zack. My life is totally confusing. I think I kinda have something for Ricky while I have a crush on Zack. Maybe I should just let a crush be a crush and feelings be feelings. I'm gonna invite Lizzy too but I doubt she will make it. College life!

Day 170:
I texted Ricky to please come over to my pool party and he said sure anything for my girl. Now I'm his girl while some  time ago he didn't even notice I existed. Today I also told the freshers, Ivy and Zack about the pool party and they said they wouldn't miss it for anything. Rumours have it that Zack likes Ivy, I don't know if it's true but I'm sure Ivy will be so happy. Zack is caught in her web! I'll just crush the feeling I have for Zack. A guy can't come in between any of my friendships!

Day 171:
Tomorrow is the pool party and everything is set. The best thing is that my brothers are going over to my granny's so I'll be the only one at home with my friends. I'm throwing this party so that I'll have an excuse to spend time with Ricky. Donny isn't coming because he is busy this Saturday.
Ricky arrived late today and this time he is saying over at my house. I am so tired so I cannot welcome him. I am just going to go to bed now.

Day 172:
I woke up this morning with a kiss from Ricky. He even got something for me, he bought me a new pair of sneakers. Playboys sure know how to play their cards right.
So it all started by one o'clock the time for the pool party. All the girls that came wore cute bathing suits but obviously mine was the best. Ben and Ed came with there girlfriends. Even Zack came with a girl, and it was clearly not Ivy, so I guess all I heard was a rumour after all. Here I am, dying for another person's property. No wonder they said crushes leave you crushed. We were having lots of fun playing in the pool. After that I had a drink with Zack and we talked for a long time. It was just a friendly conversation, it was about our lives. I don't know but Ricky got the wrong idea about the conversation. He just whispered in my ear that he wants to talk to me privately. I actually agreed... The conversation didn't go well.
Me: What do you want now.
Ricky: what were you doing with that guy?
Me: nothing, we were just discussing ya know.
Ricky: oh, discussing over a drink?
Me: yes and why do you even care? Are you jealous?
Ricky: no I'm just looking out for you.
Me: says the guy who ghosted me the time you came for a weekend.
Ricky: so you really haven't forgotten that incident? I told you I was sorry.
Me: And how am I going to believe anything that a playboy says?
Ricky: so you still see me as a playboy? I told you I have changed.
Me: yeah right!
Ricky: If you really see me as a playboy, then I might as well get into the character of a playboy.
Me: whatever!
I apologized to him later but he didn't seem happy.

Day 173:
Today was really tangled. The air between Ricky and I is still suffocating after yesterday's incident. Do you think I really like Ricky? I'm really confused, what should I do?

Day 174:
I woke up really late today, which was very unusual. I woke up with a severe headache and I was feeling drowsy. I was even running temperature. I stayed in bed all day. I am definitely going to see the doctor tomorrow.

Day 175:
I couldn't make it to the hospital today. It rained cats and dogs. This didn't make me feel any better. All Ricky could do was act cold and telling me everything is going to be fine. I fainted this morning because I was feeling so dizzy. Right now I'm so tired, I have to go to bed now.

Day 176:
My mom took me to the hospital today. The doctor said I just have a flu and prescribed few medications for me. Tomorrow if I'm feeling better I'll go over to Ivy's house.

Day 177:
I went over to Ivy's house. I went with Ricky because he said he was feeling lonely and bored. She suggested that we have a sleepover tomorrow at her house. I told her I'm fine with it if Ricky is allowed to come and she agreed. I told my mom and she said I can go for the sleep over tomorrow. My bag is all set for tomorrow.

Day 178:
I'm so angry right now that I almost left Ivy's house:
It all started as a wonderful day, Ricky and I arrived at Ivy's house by 6pm. We had dinner, had our bath and started our evening. We watched some movies together and played some games. We played monopoly and I won. We also played some video games with Ivy's brother. I suggested we all go to bed since I was just recovering from an illness and we all agreed. As a night snacker I wanted to go downstairs to grab some potato chips from the kitchen and I cannot unsee what I saw. It's really annoying and I'm angry. I saw Ivy and Ricky having a really good time together. They were kissing and stuff. When Ricky noticed I was watching then he quickly stopped. He was like its not what I think and he said what do I even care didn't I call him a playboy few days ago? And he is fitting into the character of a playboy. He is trying to justify what he did. I'm really angry with him and Ivy! What friend Ivy is! Though it's my fault, I wouldn't have called him a playboy. ╯﹏╰