Lost feelings ~ xiaoven

9.

"Now that everyone is gone , let's fight" I said , my faces only inches apart from xiaos

"Get away from me first" wow wow cold as always

I got off of xiao and let him open the portal to the imaginary (quick explanation , imaginary is just a arena where all the wounds you get are not real , if you can say it like that)
(As example , you get a cut in imaginary but as soon as you leave the imaginary the cut is gone , also there will be more explanation later)

I summoned my sword while xiao quickly summoned is scythe (fuck polearms , xiao with a cool scythe is way better , also is scythe is very epic and big)

"Ready ?"

"I was born ready" as I said the sentence I quickly dashed towards xiao aiming for his left arm (he holds the scythe with his left arm bec I say so)

He quickly dodged but he got a little cut on his arm

I ran towards him for another attack but before I could blink I had his scythe on my throat (idk how to write that properly sorrryyy)

One tiny move and I'd be dead "the fight is over , now finally go home"

"Ugh xiao you're so boring , why can't you just like hold back a bit or something"

"What do you mean ? I was holding back the whole time" I choked on air

I laughed "funny joke xiao"

"I'm not joking , I even let you attack"

"Stop lying , let's have another fight and NO HOLDING BACK"

"After the fight you will finally go home"

"Fineee"

~uhm yea too lazy to write the fight but Ayu lost very fast #bozo~

~*xiaos pov*~

After Ayu finally went home I was just laying on my bed string at the ceiling

"Xiao ... you know she is gonna betray you right?"

Yes maybe but for now I will just hope she won't , after all she is a close friend ..., or was

"But xiao , we don't know how she is gonna betray you yet"

Alatus like I said before we will just wait and see and besides that she doesn't know my weak spot , so she can't even kill me well kill us if you wanna be exact

"Also do you plan on giving venti a weapon , he would make a good archer"

I don't know , I think it's better if he doesn't even find out about it or else it could become very dangerous for him
But he would probably have an angelic weapon

"Even More Down bad than before"

Shut up but you know what happened to the other origins , I could never kill him

"But yet you still killed two of your best friends"

I didn't have a choice , it's my duty to punish those who break the rule , even tho I do miss them

"What should we do about Scaramouche , they could get dangerous"

Pff like they could get dangerous for me , I will wait until scaramouche attacks me and then give him the punishment he deserves

Alatus sighed "seems like you have a plan like always , ayu will probably show venti the weapons"

I know I know but I can't do anything about that I suppose , let's just hope she doesn't do it without me so she won't twist the story

"I hope she will do it without you so you can cry"

Shut up you stupid demon I also hope you cry

~the Next day bec i say so~

Chongyun and the others have been kinda distant and I've come to the conclusion that it's best if I just spent lunch alone on the roof

I like being alone , I've never really felt comfortable around people , even my own family

Venti was the first person I ever got comfortable around , well also kind of my first ever friend or first not toxic friend

After I moved away it was a little easier finding friends and I got a little too comfortable around others , I had several friends and I got a little too attached to them

The only one left is ayu and everyone else is no longer with us , maybe it would be better if I just avoid venti and everyone else
I could never live with the fact that venti got hurt because of me , I could never forgive myself

Yea but wouldn't I hurt venti with avoiding him ? but what if he is just friends with me out of pity

What if everyone else is just friend with me out of pity

"Probably xiao , I mean who could like someone like you , you don't deserve friends like venti and the others"

You're probably rig-

My train of thoughts got cut off when I heard the door of the roof open

It was this blonde girl from my class , I can't remember her name but she had a similar haircut

"Xiao why are you alone in the roof and not with you're friends ?"

"None of your Business , also what was your name again ?"

She dramatically gasped "how could you forget , my name is Lumine"

"I'm just not good with names" complete lie , I just don't really care

"Oh my god I was just joking , do you mind if I sit next to you , I actually also wanted to eat here"
She didn't even let me answer and just sat beside me
and started talking about random things while eating

"You know xiao , you're a really good listener even tho i thought you were like super mean und aggressive"

"Wow thanks." 

"Hey ! That was a compliment"  Lumine giggled , I don't know why but she did

"Could've worded it better" then the door openend again

"Oh xiao there you are , I was searching for you"

"and what are you doing here ?" I asked kind of annoyed because her presence was often annoying