Roselyns POV
I have been on the train for 2 hours in a compartment now. I didn't sit with James our Sirius like I would have normally. I just didn't feel like it.
Lily, Alice, and Marlene were in here with me. They were talking while I just sat there staring into space. I just was wondering into space not thinking at all. I was thinking about what I was going to be when I graduate Hogwarts. There are so many thing that I could be but I don't know.
I had an appointment tomorrow with Mcgonagall and I can't stop stressing about it.
We got to hogwarts after awhile and I just skipped dinner. I went to the library instead.
After dinner I went the common room and saw the boys laying on the couch and ground. I walked pass them and I just went up to my dorm. I didn't want to see Sirius.
I got in bed and fell asleep right away.
Once I got up I went downstairs into the common room to study before OWLs. I was down there for a good 2 hours when I saw all four boys walk down. Once Sirius saw me he went to me and tried to ask for forgiveness again. I told him no but that never stops him.
"Sirius please understand you hurt me badly. You cheated on me and you were there for me when I needed you. I still need you but I won't allow it,"
"What do you mean you still need me?"
"Nothing never mind,"
"Are you having panic attacks Rose? Are you okay?"
"I'm fine now just let me go,"
I walk away and head to class. He continued to follow me but not say anything. Right before I walked into the class he grabbed me to the side.
"Sirius I have to go to mcgonagall,"
"I need to know if your okay. I know that your not though because you normally would have punched me for even touching you. What's wrong?"
"Ok you really want to know what's wrong? What's wrong is that you cheated on me because what? I wasn't good enough? I'm not pretty enough? Or was there not enough girls swooning over you anymore? I'm freaking out because I don't know if I'm good enough to even get a good job after this. I have been studying like crazy for OWLs. And OWLs is a whole other thing. I can't do it. I'm gonna forget it. I don't have a study partner because lily always study's with Snape and I just study alone because you four always study together. I have had 4 panic attacks in the last week because of this. I hate that I miss you. I hate that I want to forgive you. I want you to be there when I have panic attacks or when I freaking out like this but you hurt me and I don't know if that would happen again. So Sirius understand that if you even look my way again I will rip each on of you eyes out and then I will slowly rip limb from limb understand?"
He nods his head and I walk into mcgonagalls office. We talked for awhile when I decided that i wanted to become a dragon trainer. That is what I want to do. I want to go to Romania and train dragons and have a little cottage and have a family there.
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